Friday, January 19, 2007

Thoughts Before I Sleep.

I wanted to end this day feeling good. Unfortunately, there was only one good thing that happened...and that was the time when I was texting...well...a-name-I-would-not-dare-mention.

The day couldn't get any worse. We had our MethRes class today and what a major news that next meeting, we will be submitting the first draft of Chapter One. What the hell?!? How could I possibly submit Chapter One of my thesis if I still don't know what they approved to be the topic for my thesis?!? Hello?!?

Our professor said that whether or not we have our discussion papers with us, it's still a go for everyone. I cannot believe I'm actually hearing this. This is absolutely preposterous! Argh!!! I hate this!!! I was already in tears during his class. I didn't mind it, considering almost everyone was in tears upon hearing the news. I hate it. No compromises, he said. The pressures were on and he was going to give us every bit of the pressure we try so hard to avoid.

It was then that it dawned on me what Ate Misty told me about the professor. I didn't hear anything good about him. So I didn't expect him to be the kind of professor I wanted him to be.

After the class, I texted...you know. I still can't say who the person is because I am not ready for people to find out who he is...especially because someone very close to him is reading my blog from time to time. Don't worry. I'll tell you who he is. In the meantime, settle for "Anonymous."

So I texted "Anonymous." I told him how frustrated I was and how hopeless I felt after hearing the big scoop on my thesis. It's a good thing he replied. I would have gone crazy if he didn't. At least, there was someone like him who knew I needed comforting.

That was it. That was the only time that I felt a glow in myself. Oh woe is me!

Now I have to go back to reality.

Time to go to sleep.

I am absolutely knocked out after going through "Highway Through Hell."

Good night.

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