Friday, January 12, 2007

On a Friday Morning.

It's a Friday morning and I am once again wide awake. This probably means that there's something I have to do for today. *Sigh* I can't concentrate right now. I just can't. My mind is thinking about a lot of things, my body is beginning to feel weak. Midterms will start on Monday. So I start reviewing everything.

There are moments when I feel it's better to just give up...when I feel it's better to just don't exert any effort. I feel like I can't do it and no matter how I try and what I do, I simply can't do it. It's sad...but I can't help feel that way at times.

What would happen if I just let everything go?

Oh the other side would be rejoicing, throwing a party and all that, that's for sure. Of course, there's that another side where I would be feeling the regrets, the sadness, the hopelessness.

The easy thing to do is, obviously, to give up.

But the thing is --

It's not an option for me.

I could try to give up on everything that I do, but in the end, I won't allow myself to. Giving up is not a choice for me. So even if my body's all weak, even if my mind's not 100% focused, I am still up for it.

It's a Friday morning.

It means I better start reviewing the lessons for the day.

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