Taking on a New Role.

A few days ago, I said that there was something big that happened. At that time, I couldn't say anything about it because the people concerned do not have any idea about it. But now that it's out in the open, I can get it out of my system.

I received a text message from Lei:

"Be ready.. I already submitted my resignation letter to ms. wowie.. Will talk to you soon.."

My heart sank. My body felt so heavy. My weariness was much more evident than before. I didn't want to think that Lei could even entertain the idea that she would resign as the Editor-in-Chief of The Scholastican. As a matter of fact, whenever she would mention things like that, I would get angry...not because I was to take over, but because I was afraid she would regret it in the end. I was one of those people who believed that Lei's term as EIC would be a great one. I had so much confidence in her that I never stopped believing that whatever comes, she can make it work.

But I guess there were just some things that happened that made her decide to resign. So even though I don't want her to leave TS, I respect her decision. I prayed that it wouldn't go to this but then again, God may have better things for her.

I'm going to miss Lei. You know, as part of TS. It's different when you spend three years with someone in the publication and not get close. It's like losing a member of a family. Truth be told, I cried last night. It was then that I felt there was no more turning back. Lei has resigned and I am officially taking over. I am still not sure whether it was a blessing or a curse. I still have doubts. I am not ready. I don't know what to do at this point.

I'm afraid. I'm very scared of what's in store for the publication now that I am the EIC. A lot of people are telling me that I can do it. A lot of my friends are giving me assurance that I had it coming. Two of them are convincing me that I will do good.

I won't lie. Since I started college, I have always dreamed of becoming Editor-in-Chief. Since I studied in SSC, I have always imagined of what I will do in TS when I become EIC. When I started as a writer for Features, the PolSci department have made known their excitement when my turn as EIC comes.

But now that it's here...now that I have it...can I make it? As the famous line of Uncle Ben in Spiderman goes, "With great power comes with great responsibility."

Hmm...

I guess we'll see what happens next.