I don't exactly know why I suddenly thought about it. I guess the momentary lapse allowed myself to entertain other things and I ended up sticking to that bubble.
For those of you who don't know yet, in three months, I will be celebrating my birthday. However, this year is not just like another ordinary birthday. I am turning 21 years old. Oh yes! I am going to be 21 on April 13. What a day to look forward to...or is it?
I never really had a birthday I could say I enjoyed very much. Don't get me wrong, there were moments then that made me very happy. But now, when I look back at it, I'd much rather forget I celebrated my birthday rather than remind myself of the emotions I felt during that time.
At first, I thought my 18th birthday would be the most special and most memorable birthday I would ever have. Unfortunately, there were some "issues" and "reasons" I cannot simply pass by, and because of that, my 18th birthday did not turn out exactly the way I planned.
My 19th birthday would have to be considered as the craziest thing I've ever done for my birthday. I spent this day with my Fine Arts friends in Tagaytay. As happy as I was that it was then I got closer to them, I wasn't all that happy because there were a lot of people who weren't there for the reason that they found out my Fine Arts friends are there as well. How shallow, right? To think...I made adjustments because that's what they asked me to do. I don't need to say who these people are. They should know I'm talking about them. Admit it, you made me cry on the day I'm supposed to smile from the time I woke up until the time I went to sleep.
Last year was even worse. I didn't even get to spend my birthday to celebrate anything. Sure, there were people who greeted me, there were some people who didn't make my day any better because they "didn't realize it was my birthday that day" even though we were already talking to each other. What was I doing on my birthday? I was working. How sad.
It's really heartbreaking to think about it...to think that I never really had a birthday I enjoyed 100 percent. There's always that itty-bitty sadness that would hide just to make others think that I was happy.
Now...
What do I want to have for my 21st birthday?
Of course, I would be having a dinner party with my family. But what about the others?
Simple. All I want for my birthday is to spend my day with the 4 very special people in my life -- my best friend Chi, my "ate" Claudia, my "panganay" Alla, and my bru Euki. That's all. 24 hours with them...and it would be enough.
For my other friends, well, of course I want to spend my birthday with them as well. When I spend it with them, a simple get-together is enough to make me happy.
A friend asked me if I ever dreamed of celebrating my birthday big time. My answer was...yes. Of course, I have. I still am.
If given the chance, I want to celebrate it in a very exclusive place where the people there are my very close friends. No family members. Not that I don't want to be with them. Celebrating my birthday with my family is another thing. To celebrate it with friends is another thing I want.
I imagined that my friends are wearing casual-dressy attires. The girls wearing dresses and the guys wearing polos and slacks. I even imagined there would be a program of some sort. Hahaha!!! Debut-ish as it may seem...I still want that to happen. It would be great to have that kind of celebration. I'd be having fun with my friends and in the end, I'd get to dance with them. Yes...it would be nice to have that kind of celebration.
Well, I guess I should stop daydreaming. It's not very good to daydream all the time.
Gotta go.
I'll try to get back later.
Ciao!
For those of you who don't know yet, in three months, I will be celebrating my birthday. However, this year is not just like another ordinary birthday. I am turning 21 years old. Oh yes! I am going to be 21 on April 13. What a day to look forward to...or is it?
I never really had a birthday I could say I enjoyed very much. Don't get me wrong, there were moments then that made me very happy. But now, when I look back at it, I'd much rather forget I celebrated my birthday rather than remind myself of the emotions I felt during that time.
At first, I thought my 18th birthday would be the most special and most memorable birthday I would ever have. Unfortunately, there were some "issues" and "reasons" I cannot simply pass by, and because of that, my 18th birthday did not turn out exactly the way I planned.
My 19th birthday would have to be considered as the craziest thing I've ever done for my birthday. I spent this day with my Fine Arts friends in Tagaytay. As happy as I was that it was then I got closer to them, I wasn't all that happy because there were a lot of people who weren't there for the reason that they found out my Fine Arts friends are there as well. How shallow, right? To think...I made adjustments because that's what they asked me to do. I don't need to say who these people are. They should know I'm talking about them. Admit it, you made me cry on the day I'm supposed to smile from the time I woke up until the time I went to sleep.
Last year was even worse. I didn't even get to spend my birthday to celebrate anything. Sure, there were people who greeted me, there were some people who didn't make my day any better because they "didn't realize it was my birthday that day" even though we were already talking to each other. What was I doing on my birthday? I was working. How sad.
It's really heartbreaking to think about it...to think that I never really had a birthday I enjoyed 100 percent. There's always that itty-bitty sadness that would hide just to make others think that I was happy.
Now...
What do I want to have for my 21st birthday?
Of course, I would be having a dinner party with my family. But what about the others?
Simple. All I want for my birthday is to spend my day with the 4 very special people in my life -- my best friend Chi, my "ate" Claudia, my "panganay" Alla, and my bru Euki. That's all. 24 hours with them...and it would be enough.
For my other friends, well, of course I want to spend my birthday with them as well. When I spend it with them, a simple get-together is enough to make me happy.
A friend asked me if I ever dreamed of celebrating my birthday big time. My answer was...yes. Of course, I have. I still am.
If given the chance, I want to celebrate it in a very exclusive place where the people there are my very close friends. No family members. Not that I don't want to be with them. Celebrating my birthday with my family is another thing. To celebrate it with friends is another thing I want.
I imagined that my friends are wearing casual-dressy attires. The girls wearing dresses and the guys wearing polos and slacks. I even imagined there would be a program of some sort. Hahaha!!! Debut-ish as it may seem...I still want that to happen. It would be great to have that kind of celebration. I'd be having fun with my friends and in the end, I'd get to dance with them. Yes...it would be nice to have that kind of celebration.
Well, I guess I should stop daydreaming. It's not very good to daydream all the time.
Gotta go.
I'll try to get back later.
Ciao!
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