I have been out of sight of Blogger for a week. I missed blogging. I missed it a lot. Imagine...I didn't have any outlet to write my feelings whatsoever. All I ever did the past week was do my thesis, research papers, reports, TS. I was so frustrated! I knew I needed the time to slow down and just let all feelings go. But I couldn't stop myself from doing what I needed to be doing. If I did, then I would be in big trouble.
This past week, I have slept for a total of...hmm...5 to 7 hours. How pathetic! I don't have classes every Tuesday and Thursday, and yet, I still didn't give myself a break. Grrrr...if only I could. Then I'd be sleeping the whole day through. I guess, the reason why I still can't sleep right now is because there's something missing. Probably this whole blogging thing. I never thought I'd miss it this much. It's always good to jot down everything (or at least, almost everything) to release whatever stress or anger or frustration I'm keeping inside. Well, I've been bottling up mixed emotions...not just this past week...but for quite some time, I've been keeping it a secret from most people. I mean, the only person who truly knows what I'm going through at the moment is my best friend. What can I say? I needed to tell someone! I can't tell my parents even though I want to. I'd die before I even think of telling my brothers! My college friends would probably make a big deal of it. My TS friends would probably get all giddy and stuff. *Sigh* Well, that's life.
I was out most of the day. After my class in Modern Political Philosophy (with Sir Boogie, of course), I went straight to my Ortho for my monthly appointment. Ouch! My teeth really hurt! If only I could get rid of these braces, I'd do it now! After going to my the ortho, I went home, ate lunch...and then...I went back to school. I needed to renew the books I borrowed from the library. For my thesis, of course! Four books, I borrowed. Shoot! My bag was so heavy. After going to the library, I went to Starbucks, had my usual Mocha Frappucino, and read the books I had. I stayed there for five hours. My gosh! What was I thinking?! Putting myself through such hardship for thesis?!
In fairness, I'm having a much clearer direction of how I'll go about my thesis. Oh! By the way. Yesterday, during my MethRes subject, Sir Laufred asked us to write who we want as our thesis adviser. Since the second semester started, I wanted Professor Yu to be my thesis adviser but when the paper was in front of me, I realized that I had to choose Sir Peter. My thesis has something to do with Foreign Policy and who better to advise me for this than my professor in Philippine Foreign Policy? It makes sense. My second choice was Sir Laufred. This is only for the reason that he really helped me out in specifying what I could focus on for this thesis and he really made it clear for me. Anyway, I can still ask for help from other professors. There's no harm in that, right?
It's almost February. Do you know what that means? It means that in a few weeks, it's Valentine's Day. February 14th is a Wednesday. Oh shoot! My class is until 6:00 in the evening. Damn! Ok, truth be told. I would love to have a date on V-Day. I would love to go out with someone on "Happy Hearts Day." Some of my friends know who I'm talking about. It would be nice to go out. It's been three years since I had a date and I guess it's just about time to go out and hang out with someone, right? *Sigh* If only I could. I hope...I really hope it happens. To go out with...it would really be like a "dream come true" for me. Hahaha!!! As silly as it may sound, I would love for that to happen.
I'm planning on buying my mom a bouquet. I love giving Mamam flowers on Valentine's Day. Hmm...now what can I give Papi? That's something to think about.
Hmm...is there anything else I have to write about? I guess not at the moment.
I have to go. I need to get some sleep.
Good night!
This past week, I have slept for a total of...hmm...5 to 7 hours. How pathetic! I don't have classes every Tuesday and Thursday, and yet, I still didn't give myself a break. Grrrr...if only I could. Then I'd be sleeping the whole day through. I guess, the reason why I still can't sleep right now is because there's something missing. Probably this whole blogging thing. I never thought I'd miss it this much. It's always good to jot down everything (or at least, almost everything) to release whatever stress or anger or frustration I'm keeping inside. Well, I've been bottling up mixed emotions...not just this past week...but for quite some time, I've been keeping it a secret from most people. I mean, the only person who truly knows what I'm going through at the moment is my best friend. What can I say? I needed to tell someone! I can't tell my parents even though I want to. I'd die before I even think of telling my brothers! My college friends would probably make a big deal of it. My TS friends would probably get all giddy and stuff. *Sigh* Well, that's life.
I was out most of the day. After my class in Modern Political Philosophy (with Sir Boogie, of course), I went straight to my Ortho for my monthly appointment. Ouch! My teeth really hurt! If only I could get rid of these braces, I'd do it now! After going to my the ortho, I went home, ate lunch...and then...I went back to school. I needed to renew the books I borrowed from the library. For my thesis, of course! Four books, I borrowed. Shoot! My bag was so heavy. After going to the library, I went to Starbucks, had my usual Mocha Frappucino, and read the books I had. I stayed there for five hours. My gosh! What was I thinking?! Putting myself through such hardship for thesis?!
In fairness, I'm having a much clearer direction of how I'll go about my thesis. Oh! By the way. Yesterday, during my MethRes subject, Sir Laufred asked us to write who we want as our thesis adviser. Since the second semester started, I wanted Professor Yu to be my thesis adviser but when the paper was in front of me, I realized that I had to choose Sir Peter. My thesis has something to do with Foreign Policy and who better to advise me for this than my professor in Philippine Foreign Policy? It makes sense. My second choice was Sir Laufred. This is only for the reason that he really helped me out in specifying what I could focus on for this thesis and he really made it clear for me. Anyway, I can still ask for help from other professors. There's no harm in that, right?
It's almost February. Do you know what that means? It means that in a few weeks, it's Valentine's Day. February 14th is a Wednesday. Oh shoot! My class is until 6:00 in the evening. Damn! Ok, truth be told. I would love to have a date on V-Day. I would love to go out with someone on "Happy Hearts Day." Some of my friends know who I'm talking about. It would be nice to go out. It's been three years since I had a date and I guess it's just about time to go out and hang out with someone, right? *Sigh* If only I could. I hope...I really hope it happens. To go out with...it would really be like a "dream come true" for me. Hahaha!!! As silly as it may sound, I would love for that to happen.
I'm planning on buying my mom a bouquet. I love giving Mamam flowers on Valentine's Day. Hmm...now what can I give Papi? That's something to think about.
Hmm...is there anything else I have to write about? I guess not at the moment.
I have to go. I need to get some sleep.
Good night!
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