The 21-Year-Old Thinks About...

I'm not used to getting compliments. Not at all. It's probably because...I never really received any when I was in high school. Sure, sure...I get them from family and relatives and from close friends. But I have never received compliments from guys. I remember feeling I'm not that beautiful because whenever I'm out with my friends, I feel like I am invisible because my friends are really attractive. If guys would come up to me, it was because of one thing: to ask for my friend's number.

So, yeah. There was an insecurity back then. Now...things have changed.

When I got to college, I was able to socialize with a lot of people, guys in particular, all thanks to the conferences, forums and symposiums I attended. During my first and second years, I've had my share of crushes. I've had my share of flirtations. But was there anything serious? Let me put it this way: I fell in love once and I got hurt twice. That's all you need to know.

And then came my third year. Things changed...a little bit. I even entertained a suitor that time. But as you may have noticed, it didn't actually work out. I called it off, realizing that I didn't want to be in a relationship right now. We remained friends. At that time, I decided to just finish college without attaching myself to anyone. It's not that I'm missing out on the "joys of having a boyfriend," as my friends would put it. Frankly speaking, I still want to enjoy my single life.

That is true until this very day. As most of you may know, I am being "linked" to this friend of mine. No matter what I say or do about what my friend and I really have, people would just think otherwise. So, I thought it would be better to just keep my mouth shut. Come what may, as the lyrics of the famous song goes. Everything will be revealed in due time.

Right now, my friends are still trying to set me up with guys they think would be a "perfect partner" for me. Besides being set up, I've met random guys in my usual hangout. As of Sunday, there are 4 guys who came up to me and introduced himself, in the hopes that they would get my name and my number. Sorry to say, 3 of them failed. As snobbish as I can be, I turned them down. The one guy that got away...well...he knows my friends...and maybe that's why I felt comfortable giving my number. But...nothing's happening. I'm dodging bullets whenever he would imply anything about courtship.

Another guy was actually straight to the point of asking if it's all right to court me. That threw me off guard because the guy who asked me was someone I met just last week. The nerve, right?! Tsk tsk.

Here I am, a 21-year-old single college student. Some would probably like the feeling that they are being noticed by guys here and there. I, on the other hand, would like to get rid of them. Haha! The ironies of life. I talkied to my friend about this...about not entertaining any guys. She simply said...as long as I am enjoying my life, I don't need to "play in the hay." True, true.

I have to go now. I still have lots of things to do.

Bye for now...

Christmas 2007 Wish List.

It's that time of the year when I get to stop for a while, sit down, and just think. No, it's not the very serious contemplation about life. For people who are oblivious of the coming season, let me remind you that there are only 36 days left before Christmas Day. This means...I get to list down stuff I'd like to have for Christmas. Hehehe...

Here we go. Like I said last year, in no particular order, I would like to have any of the following...

1. Books
1.1. The Thorn Birds by Colleen McCollough
1.2. Chronicle of a Death Foretold by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
1.3. The Choice by Nicholas Sparks

2. Accessories
2.1. Bracelet
2.2. Necklace
2.3. Earrings

3. Starbucks tumbler

4. Clothes - any tops or pants or skirts from
4.1. Supre
4.2. Whoops

5. Shoulder bags and/or handbags

6. DVD complete series of The Nanny

7. Any Bossa Nova albums

Of course, I can't forget to mention those hard-to-get Christmas gifts...

1. Sony Ericsson Z610i or Z750a
2. Sony Cyber-shot T200
3. Creative Zen (4GB) or Zen V Plus (2GB)

There you have it...my Christmas wish list for this year!

Gotta go now! Ciao!

Brand New Entry.

There are a number of reasons why I have been out of the blogging biz for the past few weeks.

Reason # 1: Back to school means back to being busy again. Study habits are starting to kick in and there's not much time to actually log in my blog and type what happened on a certain day.

Reason # 2: I have temporarily substituted cooking as an outlet. Yes, I have been cooking, both supervised and unsupervised. Lately, there's just an opening for me to concoct something new (with the help of my dear Papi, of course).

Reason # 3: The household has been entertaining guests since last month and it would be just rude to brush them off just because I want to blog.

Reason # 4: When I get the chance to log in my blog, I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to blog about. And I want this entry to actually mean something. There's a good reason why, which I will reveal later.

Reason # 5: It is only now that I know what I'm going to publish in Paper Trails.

At one o'clock in the morning, I find myself unable to sleep. Mainly it's because I slept from 7:00 to 11:00 last night. I was too tired to do anything...so right after I ate, I went to my parent's room and feel asleep.

Now, I need to get serious. After much thought, I figured that right now is the best time to blog about this. I can't waste another moment of waiting for something just so I have something to tell to whoever is reading Paper Trails.

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I have had just about enough. My ever-extending social limits have been passed. A dreadful plague has infected a horrifyingly large majority of my peers, and I have found myself unable to endure their behavior anylonger. It's almost as if a memo has been passed around, one which I did not receive. New hot topic, to be discussed at all possible opportunities: ME.

I have been "under the microscope" since third year college. Probably since I was a freshie. The difference between the two, however, is uncanny. During my first year, I was known as this political science student who flooded the school newspaper with her many feature articles. And that went on until my sophomore year. But things did not go as expected come my junior year because I suddenly found myself being questioned by a lot of people about...a certain guy.

A natural listener, I geniunely enjoy hearing other people's stories, even when they tend to slope off on various far-reaching tangents. Nevertheless, there comes a point when even the most patient ca no longer tolerate the unfathomable heights to which this self-absorption has risen. Some of my oldest and deepest friendships have morphed into relationships in which I can recite what my dear friend had for lunch every day last week, white she remains clueless about my current state of affairs. This is no fault of my own, I assure you. I am more than happy to share all my wonderful news. The interest with which it is received, however, leaves a lot to be desired.

At some point, I can only say one thing: I cannot take all the hounding and the interests and the excitement of the people around me when it comes to a certain aspect of my life. For those of you who know...yes, it is about the "love life." For those of you who thought that part of my life already exists, the answer is no. I have not now nor have I been in an exclusive relationship with anyone for a long time. Truth of the matter is...I am not planning on having one anytime soon. So...quit forcing me to tell you that I already have a love life because as of now, it's been NON-EXISTENT, as it has been for the past couple of years!

I had to wonder why these people, a.k.a. my friends, are so interested and so excited about me having a boyfriend. I figured it was because: (a) almost everyone of my friends have boyfriends; (b) they think it was highly unlikely that a 21-year-old is still single; and (c) what I always hear from my friends, "we just want you to be happy."

What makes them think I'm not happy? Just because I have no boyfriend, does it mean I'm not happy? Do I look like I'm desperate for a boyfriend? Please...I have a lot of things going for me right now and to have a boyfriend at this time is simply out of the question. I know that it isn't time yet. I haven't met a guy who I can say, "he's the one."

But I guess I have to look at it from the way my friends see it. I have this guy friend I'm very close with (not only with him but his family as well). From time to time, I am able to hang out with them as a family and sometimes I invite the siblings for a snack once in a while (my treat, of course), I know all their birthdays, and I always make time for them. If I was an outside observer, I guess I would think that there's something going on. But the fact of the matter is...there's really none.

*Sigh* No matter what I say, I know that people are going to think otherwise. They're still going to force me to tell them that there's actually SOMETHING between me and my friend. Even though the closest thing I can call that something is friendship...they're going to argue that what we actually have is MORE than friendship. Right now, my friends are even more convinced that my friend and I are more than just friends because I just turned down a guy who likes me and I turned down (yet again) another guy who keeps asking me out on a date.

How can I convince people that we are JUST friends?! Argh! Here's a fact: I AM NOT ENTERTAINING ANY SUITORS AS OF THE MOMENT. Absolutely not! I am happy with my single life, thank you very much and I don't feel that I need to be with a guy right now to make me happy because I AM HAPPY.

Here's another truth...just to make things clear. I have been asked by one of my friends, "Don't you see yourself with him in the future?"

Honestly, no...or at least, not yet. The reason is simple. He's not doing anything to make me think that he could be more than my friend. I know the kind of guy he is, if he likes the girl, he'd tell her. He won't just drop hints here and there. He would absolutely tell her straight. And since that did not or has not happened to me, I will not assume anything.

Do I want to be with him? Here's the real deal. If I could choose a guy right now to be with for the rest of my life, he's probably the guy I'd choose. I have this list that I wrote two years ago...and I tucked it in the Bible. The list contains 10 characteristics of the guy I want to be with. That list was meant to be like a prayer. It's meant to ask God to give me someone I can share my life with...with the perfect partner for me. Even if the guy has 9 out of 10, he's still not THE ONE. If you must know, he has 7 out of 10 characteristics. But I am not closing my doors for him. Who knows, right? Maybe in the future, I'll see that he has all 10...but until that day comes...I remain single.

So there you have it. My latest entry.

Oh yeah...the reason why I wanted this entry to mean something is because...this is my 200th blog entry. Yey for me!

Anyway, it's time to go to sleep.

G'night, everyone!

My Last Schedule.

The title says it all.

This is my very last schedule and after this...it's "Goodbye, College!"

I am left with three subjects. Just three subjects. Well, three subjects plus the thesis and oral defense...and the written comprehensives. Whew!

Check it out. This is the last time I'm posting class schedules. Hahaha!

The Colors of Love Test.

I took a certain test in Tickle a few minutes ago. Surprisingly, this is the result.

o O o

Margie, when you reveal your true colors in love, you're a

If you had a love theme song it might just be, "Let's Stay Together." That's because it's usually important for your sense of security to be part of a stable, committed relationship. You tend to believe that a true partnership means one that's for life — the kind of eternal love you seek. There's a certain sense of traditionalism in your view of romance. You look for old-fashioned values like honesty, trust, and devotion. You may even believe that the most harmonious partnerships happen when the man is the breadwinner. Your greatest relationship vulnerability appears to be a tendency to fear that your partner will leave you. Try to calm those worries as you set out to look for the kind of romance you've dreamt about. Have faith that your very own committed partner is out there.

When you're not thinking about love, you're probably thinking about more worldly things. Types like you tend to feel that money makes the world go round. As a result, you do what you can to maximize your wealth. But beyond life's financial rewards, success in itself can be important to you. As a result, you work harder than many do to make sure you achieve it. Perhaps that's because you like being the best at what you do. You may also appreciate the accolades that come with a job well done. Status symbols and your appearance can be other strong focuses for your type. You seem to enjoy being admired for your style or belongings. The confident way you're able carry yourself can make you seem like quite an impressive person at times.

In or out of a relationship, you're the kind of person who tolerates criticism pretty well. In fact, if a friend or lover offered you some constructive feedback, you'd probably see their concern as an act of compassion. Because you're not likely to take people's words too personally, you can be very approachable and easy to talk to. These are both really special traits to have in relationships. However just because you accept criticism well, doesn't mean you never feel blue. On the contrary, when you're low, you may tend to dwell on your sorrows until they seem much larger than they really are. You may even find yourself shutting yourself off from people and feeling uncomfortable in your environment. At times like these, be gentle with yourself. Try little things to cheer yourself up. Watch your favorite movie or get outside. Above all, know that the blues will pass.

When you're part of a couple, it's interesting to note that while strong commitment is of paramount importance to you, a strong emotional connection may be less so. In fact, for you the physical high of sex may become a more important focus of your relationship than other aspects of sharing. Being aware of this priority and finding someone who shares it will be vital. It will ensure that you and your mate both feel fulfilled in your relationship, giving you a better chance of keeping the love you seek.

One Year Anniversary.

Oh yes...you got that right! It's officially my one year anniversary...

...with Blogger! Hahaha! You thought I was talking about...someone, huh? Hehehe...

I can't believe it. One year ago, I was merely doing this for past time. As days, weeks, months passed by, I find myself doing this more and more...as if it was really necessary. Who would have thought that I was going to make this a habit.

The thing is...I really don't mind anymore who reads my blog. I remember freaking out the moment I found out that my professors discovered my blog. Then I got used to it...so, in the end, I have accepted the fact that one way or another I will hear comments from them about my latest entry in my blog. Hahaha!

Anyway, I'm out of things to say. I'll probably be back later...

Ciao!

Serendipity Made Me Think.

Good morning, world! It is yet another day to blog. Hehehe...

I was in Starbucks Vito Cruz yesterday, working on my thesis. Oh yes, I'm slowly saying goodbye to my sembreak to make progress in my thesis. Anyway, in the course of the painstaking research, I received a text message from a friend that caught my attention. I actually stopped at what I was doing and thought about that message.

Oftentimes, we ask for signs..
For us to know if the person is the right one..
But what if there are no signs?
Is the 'absence of signs' a sign?

As you all know, I have been living the single life ever since. I've experienced a lot of heartaches through the years. When I got to third year college, it was then that I really realized that there's absolutely no need for me to search for "the one." It was then that I decided...no more thinking too much about "relationships" with my guy friends. I just thought that if the guy is "the one," I'll receive some kind of sign from God. What that sign may be, that is between me and God.

And then I receive this message. Is it actually trying to tell me something? What if there is no need for signs? Will I just know? Hmm...maybe yes, maybe no...leaning more on yes, of course.

So...is the 'absence of signs" a sign?

Can somebody tell me?

Estoy Aburrido!

There is absolutely nothing to do today. I know I made plans to work on my thesis but...it's just too damn cold and this is just making me too lazy. Aw...I'm absolutely going to get it. This is not good. I can imagine it now...my adviser would stare at me and say, "What have you been doing for the past three weeks?"

I shouldn't really be this lazy...but the rain won't stop and I'm getting this feeling that I need to get out of my house, bring my school work with me and do them in my usual study place: Starbucks. That's what I usually do. *Sigh* If only the weather was OK.

I'm getting hungry...gotta go!

Ciao!

Random Blogthings Quizzes.

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are Cheesecake

Rich, sweet, and simply perfect. You're not boring - you're just the best!

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Are a Fun Girl!

You are all about having fun - and you don't need to drink to have a good time Sure, you've thrown back more than a few every so often But getting totally stupid and wasted is not your style You're the life of the party, by keeping everyone laughing and smiling

Are You a Party Girl?

Wednesday Morning Blog.

It's been raining for 24 hours straight. I don't know why...but the rain has made me feel a little blue. I can't really explain how it's making me feel a wee bit down in the dumps -- it just does. I don't have any plans for the day to go out...I don't have any plans today, period. Somehow, I feel like the rain is trying to tell me something. I guess I just have to wait a while before I can decode this "message."

Regardless of the blues, I continue blogging. Who knows? Maybe I'll figure out why I've been feeling sad.

After minutes of thinking what to type, I realized I don't have any idea how to go about today's entry. *Sigh* Maybe it's because I woke up an hour ago and my brain is not yet exactly in the mood to think. Haha!

Anyway, don't worry...I'll be back...sooner or later. I'm sure there's something to blog about today.

Just wait.

The Countdown Begins.

A hundred and thirty days left...before I can finally say, "It's over." My college years will be done. And sixteen days after that, I'll be marching with my classmates and friends as we graduate. It seems like only last week when we were starting the school year. All of a sudden, I find myself getting ready to enroll myself for the second semester. My last semester.

*Sigh*

I just can't believe it. I can't believe that in a few months, I'm going to say goodbye to the school I've gone to for four years. Hmmm...I don't know if I should be happy or sad. I guess I'm feeling both. People might think that I'm thinking about it so soon...but who couldn't? It's already in front of me...would I choose to ignore it? Of course not. There's no escaping it. Before I know it, that day has finally come.

And so the countdown begins.

Let's see what interesting things are going to happen to me.

Yet Another Glorietta Incident.

Just after eating lunch, I received yet another startling news about Glorietta. Our neighbor just told Papi that there was a fire in Glorietta 4. Immediately, we turned the television on and tuned in to local news channels. Finally, Channel 26 flashed "Restoran sa Glorietta 4, nasunog."

The fire came from Seafood Seafood Market Restaurant, located at the second floor. The smoke from the restaurant even reached the third floor. According to reports, the fire was caused by a faulty electrical wiring and an exhaust problem. Fortunately, the whole incident was immediately contained and no one was injured.

*Sigh* What in heaven's name is happening?

Harry Potter Shocker!

I was simply surfing the net. I was logging in my Multiply and Friendster accounts, checking my mail, downloading music. I was listening to Natalie's "Love You So" when I decided to search for the song's lyrics in Yahoo. It was then that something caught my attention.

'Potter' author stirs things up. Without hesitation, I clicked on it and read the article.

*Gasp!* Albus Dumbledore is GAY! J.K. Rowling outed on of the beloved characters of the Harry Potter series in front of many people during her book reading and book signing at Carnegie Hall.

I still can't believe it. I'm still in shock. Hahaha!

Nonetheless, Albus Dumbledore is Albus Dumbledore. I still love him, along with the other characters of the Harry Potter series.

I thought I'd blog today...so there!

Ciao!

Glorietta Blast.

I was supposed to meet my friend in Glorietta this afternoon. We wanted to talk about something and we usually eat out in Luk Yuen located at Glorietta 2. We agreed to meet at 2 o'clock. By 1:30 in the afternoon, as I was about to leave school to go to the mall, I received a rather disturbing news from my mom. She said that there was a bombing in Glorietta 2. When I read that message, I was in total awe. I didn't know whether my mom was telling me what happened or if she was asking me if I was aware. Either way, the message caused me to be totally blank.

I immediately texted my friend to see whether or not she's OK. Fortunately, she was still at home. Thank God! I don't know what I'd do if she was injured or something. As soon as I got home, I turned the television on to see what happened. When I saw the images of the bombing, I was at a loss for words.

Just take a look (images taken from Inquirer.net)

My Life is 93% Happy

[ ]You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]You are in love
[x]You have your own room.
[x]You own a cell phone
[x]You have an ipod/ mp3 player
[x]Your parents are still married.
[x]You have more than 1 best friend. - si BEZ at syempre si mr. shock absorber...hahaha!
[x]There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

T 0 T A L: 6

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You NEVER cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.

T 0 T A L: 5

[x] You have over 50 friends on friendster - in both accounts...
[x] You have over 500 friends on friendster - in my first account...
[ ] You have over 1000 friends on friendster
[x] You have pictures on friendster
[x] Your parents let you have a friendster
[x] You get allowance
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going to school. - it's not always...but i do...
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.

T 0 T A L: 10

[ ] You own a car
[ ] You usually don't fight with your mom
[x] You are happy with your appearance
[ ] You have never gotten a failing grade in your life
[x] You have friends

T 0 T A L: 2

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about many people.
[x] You know more than one language
[x] You have a screen name
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You dont have any enemies - as far as i know...
[x] You are a generally nice person.

T O T A L: 8

TOTAL OVERALL: 31

Now count your numbers and multiply by 3

Then title this "MY LIFE IS _% HAPPY

A Few Words.

It's been 13 days since my brother left...9 days since my best friend left. Two people I cherish are thousands of miles away from me. I still can't get over it. Most people think I've gotten over the depression. Well, newsflash -- I'm not. Sure, I'm not as sad as I am when they left...but the melancholy is still definitely there.

*Sigh*

I think I'll log out for a while. I'm not feeling so good.

Morning Praise.

Every morning, I make it a point that I always say my prayers for the new day that has been given to me by my Father. Regardless of whether I feel down or happy or miserable, I always pray. For a good 10 minutes after I wake up, I pray to God and tell Him what is in my heart.

Today, it felt like a prayer wasn't enough. After praying, I felt like I needed to listen to a song. This song is probably one of those songs I will sing forever...this song, as hard as it is for me to explain, always made me feel assured that I am loved.

It is simply the perfect song.

First Semester is Over!

I'm celebrating! Oh yes! I am celebrating...because I can finally take a breather!

I don't want to stay long...all I care about is...I can sleep long hours again!!!

Like this...



Yeah!!!

Awkward.

It's an awkward feeling. Waking up today, knowing that things have changed...but you have no idea whether it's for better or for worse.

I'm still sad. Every time I think about it, I can feel the tears starting to well up in my eyes. It's really not easy, you know. Trying to think about something else. One way or another, you're going to think about it. There's absolutely no escaping the thought.

I've started to feel this way since two weeks ago...when my brother left for L.A. And things aren't getting any easier. I tried to stop myself from crying but I can't. My college friends said, "It's OK, you still have us." No offense to them, I appreciate the comfort a lot. I know I still have so many friends I can count on. But I think everyone would agree that...it would still be different. Sure, your friends are with you; you can meet up anytime you want. But you will still look for your best friend.

I miss my best friend. I miss my brother. Two very important people in my life are a thousand miles away and I can only settle for mere chats and emails.

I better go. I'm having an early start on studying for my finals in International Law.

That Fateful Day.

Too much is changing...and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.

It's that day that I was dreading for. I was scared of this day. Chi is leaving for the States and...I can't do anything to stop her from going. As much as I want to make her stay, as much as I want her to be here, where I can see her anytime I want to...I can't.

Everything's changing. Kuya Rom's in Los Angeles, Chi is leaving in a couple of hours...things keep happening that I can't control.

*Sigh*

The tears have yet to stop from falling. I can't seem to cheer myself up from this situation. Would you say that I'm overreacting from this? I guess. But I don't care. How would you feel if you spent your life with someone for so many years and then you found yourself saying goodbye to that one person when you least expect it? Now you tell me if crying about it and feeling depressed is overreacting.

Sure, I'll see her again. In about a year or two. It's hard to adjust to it now. It's hard to adjust to the kind of life from before when Chi is just a jeepney ride away to the situation that's going to be when I have to settle for chats and emails.

I know Chi will probably see this the moment she logs in the internet. You know how I feel about it, Bez. Ever since that day you told me you're leaving after you graduate, you know how I felt. I'm happy for you but...it's just going to be a hard time for me to adjust to the new reality when you're not near anymore...when you and I can no longer hang out in Starbucks whenever we feel like it.

I'm going to miss you so very much...

Bittersweet.

The hardest thing about friendship is parting. When someone you love moves away, it seemed as if that friendship was just starting until that one fateful day. I never saw it coming, it hit so very fast. The departure was in sight and it was then I realized that we've just spent our last days together.

I miss her now everyday. I can't believe our time is done. We helped each other through many times, both good and bad. As I think of them and reminisce, I see how much we grew from little kids to young adults, we were all each other had. She wasn't just any friend who dropped by and left. Now we're going our separate ways, all I can do is remember the fun we've had through the years.

I Fell Asleep at 8:30!

I don't know if I was too tired or if the weather was too cold. Bottom line...I was able to sleep. Sorry to Alla and Euki...we were in the middle of our chat when I fell asleep. Hey! I haven't had enough sleep for the past week, I needed this!

So what am I going to do now? Well, I'm done with my synthesis paper in Gender, Development and Peace. I'm currently doing my reviewer for Public International Law. Oh yeah! The first semester is about to end and I'm looking forward to it.

Anyway, I better start making breakfast.

Ciao!

Blog Entry No. 180

It is only now that I realized that after 11 months of blogging, I am just 20 entries short before making it to 200. Hahaha!

I can't believe how September just came flying by. It seemed like only yesterday, I was looking forward to my retreat by end of August...now it's actually the last day of September and it felt as if I wasn't able to do as much of the things I wanted to do this month.

Yesterday, I went to Starbucks Vito Cruz. My laptop at hand, my handouts properly placed in my filing folder, I was ready to go and finish my papers for the week. Surprisingly, there weren't too many people in Starbucks around that time and I was able to sit at my usual table. So for 3 hours straight, I was reading articles and writing down notes and typing in Microsoft Word. After three hours, my head was practically spinning from the information overload.

After hours of sitting around, drinking coffee (yes, I'm still on my two-digit budget limit), it felt like I should take a break. So I decided to read a book a certain someone (you know who you are) was recommending to me. According to him, I will be able to relate to the story. The book was called "The Thorn Birds" by Colleen McCullough. It was a great story, to say the least. Honestly, I seldom read novels like these but hey...I don't regret reading this one. I couldn't even put the book down. I found myself flipping through the pages until I realized that I am 15 pages away from finishing the whole book.

Let me end this entry with a memorable quote in the book...

"The day that I first saw you at the Gilly station, you smiled at me, then you said my name. Then you touched me... And since that day, I have somehow known, though I never saw you again, that my last thought this side of the grave would be of you... And there's nothing I can do to change it. Do you know how terrifying it is, that power you have over me?"

Morning Blog.

4:38 in the morning.

I woke up from a much needed sleep. I had a six-hour sleep last night. It felt good to finally be able to catch a break at least for one night It's also a good thing that I have today as a rest day. I'm going out with my high school barkada just to hang out. By tomorrow, I'll be doing school work until the break of dawn once again. But let's not dwell on tomorrow's plans. I'd rather think about what I'm going to do later together with my friends. Hehehe...

Surprisingly, I really don't know what to put in my blog right now. My mind is completely blank. Truth is...I'm still feeling a bit groggy. Anyway, I think I better go. I want to go back to sleep and the only way that's going to happen is closing this blog and shutting off my laptop. Haha!

Good morning, people! It's back to sleep for me...

Back to the Habit.

It's back to no sleep in the weekdays. It was actually after the defense that I realized that I still had much to do for the semester. Papers, reports, debates -- the list goes on and on. And may I remind you that this is just for academics? I still have The Scholastican to worry about.

So yes, it really hasn't been as relaxing as I hoped it would be. Who has time to relax? It seems like the moment I finish with one workload, another one comes piling in. *Sigh* It will all end...it will.

As much as I want to stay and make this entry longer, I better get going. I still have a lot to finish.

Radio Prod Talent!

This was a first for me. But I guess it was bound to happen since I have friends in the MassComm department. Jen Chan asked me to be her talent in her Radio Prod class today. It was such a nerve-wrecking experience but in the end, I had fun. It felt a little silly, but...I enjoyed it, much to my surprise.

I was the guest for "Kulasa Conversations." Being the Editor-in-Chief of The Schoalstican, I was asked (obviously) information about the school publication. I thought that they would throw hard questions at me. Fortunately, the interview was pretty free-flowing.

Anyway, I think I better go. I need to do something here in school. Oh yeah...I forgot to mention that I'm using Wi-Fi here in the Social Hall. Hehehe...

Ciao!

Kuya Rom Goes to US.

I woke up around 3 o'clock in the morning, realizing what day it was: today is the day Kuya Rom leaves for the US...and there's really nothing I can do about it.

As much as I would like him to stay and be with his family, it's not for me to decide how he should live his life. This is his life. He knows what is best for himself. It would be too selfish of me to ask him to stay. A bigger part of me is happy for him...very happy. I just can't deny that there's that small part inside of me that's sad.

For 21 years, my brother and I have been inseparable. It was only this year that we weren't able to celebrate our birthdays together. Now...we won't be able to spend Christmas together. And unfortunately, he won't be here to see me graduate.

Hmm...I think I should go for a while...I still have to prepare for my class in International Law.

Until then...

I Saw Elliott Yamin at Trinoma!!!

You read it right, fellow bloggers/dear readers/unexpected blog hitters.

I went all the way to Trinoma in Quezon City just to watch American Idol Elliott Yamin. Don't really have much to say except...

Just check out my Multiply site for pictures and videos.

Pictures: Elliott Yamin in Trinoma

Videos:
Elliott Yamin 1
Elliott Yamin 2
Elliott Yamin 3
Elliott Yamin 4
Elliott Yamin 5

Ciao!

I Can Finally Sleep!

Yes! After the long and winding road, I can finally sleep. I have been sleep-deprived for a couple of days now because I have been preparing for my report in Gender, Development and Peace and getting ready for my thesis defense. Oh! Did I mention that both of them were held on the SAME day? Now you know.

The report went well. I was able to answer Ms. Cucio's questions without blacking out. Hehehe. Even though I honestly dreaded to do my report, I was still doing OK. I'm glad. One down.

Then, of course, there's the thesis defense. I was feeling...hmm...what was I feeling? Actually, I didn't really know what I was going through when I stood in front of the panel. A bit rattled, yes, but it wasn't really nervousness. Whatever it was, it was gone when I started talking and discussed my thesis.

Good responses from the panel, fortunately. I didn't really expect this kind of turnout. But bottom line is this: I'm happy.

As much as I would like to stay online and blog...I really need to get some sleep.

G'night, dear readers and fellow bloggers! Until the next blog entry...

I Have a Baby!!!

Gotcha!

Hahaha...don't take it literally, people. I don't have a "real" baby.

As of 02:17 in the afternoon, I officially bought my first ever laptop. Oh yeah! I'm celebrating! I have a laptop and I am just so happy about the whole thing.

That's all I have to say right now. Hehehe...

Disney Princesses Quiz

Thanks to my friend, Nina, I got hold of this "quiz." Hmm...I wonder which Disney Princess I am. Yesterday, at the POLIS Acquaintance Party, I was in the "Princess Ariel" team. Hahaha!

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Cinderella:
[ ] One of your parents is dead
[x] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[x] You love to dress up
[x] You love animals
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming
[ ] Your mom is really strict
[ ] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you
[x] You're afraid to speak your mind sometimes
[ ] You have left your shoes at a friend's house before
[ ] You have blonde hair
TOTAL: 5

Belle:
[ ] You've fallen in love with someone your friends didn't like
[ ] You've been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[ ] You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird
[x] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need
[ ] You've had guys like you only because they think you're pretty
[x] You've rejected at least one person when they've asked you out
TOTAL: 6

Jasmine:
[ ] Your dad is very rich/important
[x] You are very clever - at least, I'd like to think so...hahaha!
[x] You've fallen in love with someone way different from you
[x] You're unique and different from everyone else
[x] You'd never marry someone just because they were rich
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[ ] You don't have a lot of friends
[x] You're independent
[ ] You have a very nice house
[ ] Your parents try to control your life
TOTAL: 6

Ariel:
[x] Your parents expect a lot from you
[x] You really try to follow the rules, but it's hard for you
[ ] You're a bit of a trouble maker
[x] You're the youngest in your family
[ ] You have a lot of sisters
[x] You collect something
[ ] You have long, red hair
[ ] You have a pet fish
[x] You're extremely curious
[x] You believe everything people tell you/you're a bit gullible - unfortunately, I am at times...
TOTAL: 6

Snow White:
[x] You know that you're beautiful - can we change the word to "pretty"??? hehehe...
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[ ] You've almost been killed
[x] You have at least seven good friends
[ ] You've had food poisoning
[ ] You have short brown hair
[ ] You get along with everyone - there's bound to be at least one who doesn't like me.
[x] All of your friends are different
[x] You love to have a good time
[ ] You're happier when you're out of the house than in
TOTAL: 4

Mulan:
[ ] You're a tomboy
[ ] Everyone wishes you could be a bit more girly
[ ] You've pretended to be someone you're not
[ ] You've had a physical fight with someone
[ ] You have/had considered running away from home
[ ] Your parents try to plan your life out
[ ] Most of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[x] You love your family so much that you'd do anything to protect them
[x] You are proud that you're different
TOTAL: 3

Aurora (Sleeping Beauty):
[ ] You live with someone other than your parents
[ ] You were almost killed at a very young age.
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughful - I'd like to think I am...
[x] You have a beautiful voice - that's what everybody tells me...and I'd like to think so...hehe
[x] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[ ] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You're adopted
[x] You have long hair
[x] You're very romantic - I think I am...
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL: 5

Pocahontas:
[x] You love to walk around and explore your city
[ ] You are more spiritual than religious
[ ] You've been in an interracial relationship
[ ] One of your siblings is dead
[x] Your parents are very protective of you
[x] Someone you know has been in war
[x] You love nature
[ ] You have black hair
[ ] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
[ ] You're very adventurous
TOTAL: 4

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Hmm...so I am a combination of Belle, Jasmine and Ariel...hah!

Sleepy.

I got my most awaited sleep yesterday. It was only then that I could say, I slept long enough to actually say I had a dream about someone. Hahaha! It was something I looked forward to...the sleep, I mean. Lately, it was always a one-hour sleep; most of the time, there was no sleep at all. Good thing I finally rested.

As much as possible, I am taking every opportunity to sleep because by Monday, it's work work work again. Woe is me.

Anyway, I think I'll log out for a while. I've been yawning 8 times the past 20 minutes. Is that normal?

Be right back.

Part II.

So where were we? Ah yes...I finally went inside Starbucks and continued to study for my class in International Law.

It was pretty much "peaceful" when I got in Starbucks, minding my own business, studying and all. Of course, from time to time I would receive text messages from a couple of friends. Basically, I got things done...at least, things I needed to do for the next day.

You'd think that the second part of my memorable Friday was all that.

Here's the interesting part. Note to Marc: I hope you'll be happy. As they say in Filipino, "Pabida effect ka dito!"

It wasn't exactly as peaceful as you would assume it would be. The thing is...throughout the time I would be studying in my little corner in Starbucks, Marc would come over and have a little chitchat whenever he got stuck in the paper he was doing.

Number of times Marc came by my table: 4 times.

Not to worry, Marc, I'm not here to make you look bad.

Actually, I was happy to see Marc that time. It was sort of an "update me with your life" session. It's not everyday that you would see your former boss and just talk, right?

My Starbucks Friday ended around 6 o'clock in the evening. I've finished studying at that time and I felt my head starting to spin. It was almost like an information overload.

* * *

So who would have thought I'd have a day like that? Hahaha! I find it so hilarious that a couple of my friends are starting to think about spending time in Starbucks so that they could experience first hand what I already went through. Hehehe...

Anyway, it is time to go. Still have some things to do...

G'bye!

Break Time.

I started studying for tomorrow's class eight hours ago. You would think that by now, I'd be finished. Think again. I am not even halfway done with my studies. Not even close. *Sigh* Woe to me. How am I going to go through tomorrow?

Left without any energy to complain about it, I have decided instead to blog my obvious state of restlessness. Hmm...maybe I should just blog about something that happened a few days ago. Specifically, what happened last Friday, September 7th. Yes, it was, yet again, one of those very memorable days.

Note to readers: the reason why I am actually doing this entry is because there are two particular people requesting that I do an entry about this day. You know who you are. So I hope you're satisfied. Hahaha!

* * *

I arrived in school around 10 o'clock carrying a nice bouquet of flowers from ___ (I don't want to say who it is...but most of you probably know). I bumped into Euki and Angelo when I entered the school and unfortunately for Euki, she wasn't able to see ___ (sorry, people...I really can't say who it is). Angelo even made a comment. Hmph! I'll get you for that, Mr. John Angelo Cortez!

Anyway, back to the story. I immediately went to The Scholastican Office to supervise layout with Peachy and Karen. As I passed by the halls of my school, I can see a number of students looking at me. I wasn't humiliated. But I did feel a little conscious, carrying the bouquet around.

I stayed in school until after lunch, when Peachy and Karen were done with layouting the Deluge page. I even met up with my professor, Sir Bugaoan, at the canteen when I bought food before I went. As usual, he had that sly, all-knowing smile when he saw me carrying the bouquet. Let me just quote him on what he told me about the bouquet, "It's love."

Whoa whoa whoa! Absolutely not. It's not like that at all. Tsk tsk tsk. Shame on Sir Bugaoan for thinking that. Hahaha!

I left for Starbucks around 1:30 in the afternoon. Again, walking with the bouquet still made me conscious. When I got there, I went inside to check if there are still seats available. Unfortunately, there weren't any. So I put my stuff down on one of the tables located outside. When I turned around, I was greeted by an someone unexpected.

"Excuse me, miss," I heard the voice say. All of a sudden, I found myself looking at my professor, Sir Peter. What are the odds of me seeing him in Starbucks? We didn't talk much. He had company. He just asked me whether or not Tracy was able to make it on time for the talk with PAASCU. I actually didn't see Tracy in school but I told him that I know she was there early.

Anyway, I went in to order my usual Grande Mocha Frappucino. Before I was able say my order, a certain someone caught my eye. Once again, another unexpected person was there. It was my boss in DFA, Marc. Yes, yes...I call him Marc now. Since I am no longer his trainee, and he said he's going to "kill" me if I call him "Sir" one more time. He was about to go outside, so I pointed him to where I was sitting and I proceeded to order my drink.

A few minutes later, I was out with Marc and my Mocha Frappucino. If I recall correctly, he even said, "Di na talaga nagbago, no? Mocha frappe pa rin." We had a little chitchat, he was trying to stop me from studying International Law because I quote, "There is no such thing as international law in the first place." And he went on explaining to me why. At some point, I was thinking to myself, "Uh-oh...what will Sir Peter say once we see each other in class?" Hehehe...

After about 40 minutes, he went back inside to work on his term paper. Sorry, Marc...I forgot what your paper was all about again. Before leaving me behind, he told me that I should go in as soon as a table is free. Sure! No problem. Hahaha!

About 30 minutes after Marc has gone in, I found a table I can sit inside and went in before anyone else got there first.

*Sigh*

I wish I could go on...but...it's time to get back to work. Part II will be posted tomorrow...hopefully.

Ciao!

Morning's Here.

Morning's here, the morning's here
Sunshine is near
The sky is blue, the morning's here

o O o

Good morning!

I may not be able to blog today because I'll be going to my Lola's house in Parañaque and will probably be there until much much later.

Nothing much to tell. Hehehe...oooh! Oh yeah...I finally customized my Multiply site! Hahaha! A little shallow, yes, but proud of it.

So what am I going to do now? Oh my...still have lots to do with academics and thesis and TS.

Thinking About Yesterday's Post.

Too often these days, we get so caught up in the mundane details of our lives that we forget to see the wonder in what we have, in the loves and friendships we find in our lives. We are so busy with our academic loads and our daily jobs that we forget to see the miracles all about us. Weighed down by our every day lives, we forget that fairy tales can come true.

There is magic in love, beauty in friendship. Is it not a miracle that in all the wide world, two people might find each other, fall in love, and spend their lives with one another? Sometimes when life treats us unfairly, when love leaves us broken-hearted, we forget that someday our prince will come. But if we open our hearts to the wonder about us, our own fairy tales can come true.

Believing in the magic in everyday life, seeing that our lives can be fairy tales, doesn't mean that the real world is any less there. Bills still need to be paid, daily jobs must be worked. But happiness is something we choose to have, as much as it is something we find, and when you choose to see the wonder in your life, miracles can happen.

In this world of rent, bills, and jobs, two people might - through a series of amazing coincidences - meet. Become friends. Fall in love. Find in each other they kind of quiet solace and passionate love that is the envy of others.

The "L" Word Keeps Crawling Back.

I woke up around 5 o'clock in the morning. No reason at all. As usual, I would simply get up and turn the computer on and surf the net. I went to my Multiply site to see what's new and I saw an entry by Chi. "Once Upon an End." That was the title of her blog entry. It caught my attention. It seemed intriguing. So I read it...only to find out it was about fairy tales and love lives.

I don't know why. But suddenly I had the urge to write something. Hmmm...just when I thought this day was going to be same old, same old.

* * *

When I was about 7 or 8 years old, I started to daydream about being a princess in those fairy tale stories I used to read. I instantly loved the idea of having a prince to come for me one day and save me...from whatever it is I need saving from. I don't know. I was a kid, I didn't know what was in store for me in the future. So yes, I filled my head with these images of what I thought would be a great fairy tale come to life when I reached a certain age.

Years passed, I still thought about my would-be fairy tale life. I was waiting for my "prince." Yes, yes, I realized that my head was up in Cloud 9. But what was I to do? I was in love with the whole idea.

High school years have come and gone, I have had my share of kilig moments and heartbreaks. Still, it didn't stop me from thinking that I would someday meet that one person who was looking for me all his life. Too cheesy, I know, but at that point, I got the habit of reading romance novels. My head was filled up with these love stories here and there, I was daydreaming time to time.

Then college years arrived. This was the time it hit me. My life wasn't the fairy tale story I have always dreamed of. It wasn't as sweet as I hoped it would be. My college years have brought me to tears more times than it made me happy.

From 2004 to present. Total heartaches or heartbreaks: Three. The third was the most painful one. Apart from the fact that I still haven't found the "prince" I was looking for, life was simply...treacherous, to say the least. Feuds between friends, misunderstanding in the group, you know the drill. *Sigh* Would I want to go back in time and change things. Sure, somehow I wished that certain things never happened at all. But then again, in a way, I'm glad they did, because I had a new perspective in life.

Back to the heartbreaks. I was so down in the dumps. I was depressed. I wanted to just give up on love. There, I said it. The "L" word. No matter what I do, it seemed that I will never get the chance to find my prince.

Until I realized that I don't need to find my "prince." No search necessary. At that time, I realized that I already have a "prince." Yes, it's true. That, I do.

Oh no...I'm not in a relationship. Absolutely not. But believe it or not, I have found a "prince" in a dear friend of mine. Who would have thought, huh? Isn't it wonderful? I don't know if my friend IS my prince charming...but he is, without a doubt, a prince to me. Must I ramble on with stories about him? Hmm...maybe some other time. For now, that is all you need to know.

It's funny. I just realized something. That is...

Once in a while, in the middle of an ordinary life...love gives us a fairy tale.

Evening Blogging.

Sleep.

The bed is calling me to lie down and go to sleep. But I can't. Unfortunately, I can't. Not yet.

*Sigh*

Woe is me. I can't go to sleep even if I wanted to. I have yawned six times for the past 20 minutes. Does that have any significance to you at all?

People would probably say, "Why don't you just go to sleep?" Yeah...if only it was that easy for me to do it. The thing is...I'm just really swamped with so much school load. Readings. Papers. Reports. Cases. Thesis. Presswork. These are just some of the things I'm doing.

Yes, I know I can do more than two things at a time but...this is just too much. Everything keeps piling up and seems like I'm not getting any work done.

Maybe I should try to go to sleep. I need it anyway. I didn't get any last night.

Good night, people!

Blogging in TS Office.

02:20 in the afternoon

Yes, as a matter of fact, I am currently in The Scholastican Office, blogging my blues away. I don't exactly know why. I just feel a little bit down. I can't seem to really cheer myself up. Yes, I am once again wearing a mask for everybody's sakes.

Academics.

Thesis.

TS.

My top three priorities. Hmm...somehow, I don't think it's quite right. I feel that it shouldn't be my top three priorities. If anything...I think they should be my TOP PRIORITIES.

*Sigh*

03:30 in the afternoon

Then all of a sudden, my attention goes to another incident.

What a way to go.

You know, there are some Scholasticans who really pissed me off today. I won't say who they are...for the sake of keeping their identities a secret.

I was walking back to the publication office, coming from the faculty room. I was, as usual, minding my own business...when...all of a sudden, I stopped on my tracks. Forcibly. I suddenly found myself not moving at all because one (rather huge) student walked in front of me while another walked behind me. Wait...they weren't walking, actually...they were sprinting, rather. As soon as I got my composure back, I saw who they were. The nerve!

Those ____ students who thought it would be a great idea to take a short cut to get a glimpse of the professor they were crushing on. Hmph!

Am I that thin or that small to not see?! Am I not visible at all to the human eye?! Am I not a person to say, "excuse me" or "sorry" or whatever needs to be said at that moment?! My gosh! The audacity of these people...

Some of you readers know who I'm talking about. You've probably seen them along the hallways of our school.

I'm still a little bit frustrated...I think now is the time to go to Starbucks and calm myself down a bit. Yeah...I probably need to do that. I've been in school since 9 in the morning. I need to go some place else.

Ciao!

"My marrying age is 30." --> Wooo! Nine Years to Go!!!

I got this from Meg's site. I wonder how this would go...

Thanks, Meg!

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[x] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] I own more than one credit card.
[ ] I know how to change the oil in my dads car.
[x] I do my own laundry.
[x] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself.
[x] I think politics are exciting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
[x] My parents have better things to say than my friends.

total: 7

[x] I show up for school/college/work every day early.
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[x] I've never gotten a detention.
[x] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[x] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[ ] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[x] drink coffee at least once a week.

total: 9

[x] I know how to do the dishes
[x] I can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it
[x] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[ ] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college.
[ ] I remember to feed my pets.

total: 6

[x] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at Gloria Jeans know me by name.
[ ] my favorite kind of food is take out.
[ ] I have gained weight since middle/high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[ ] I cant go out of the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.

total: 4

[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[ ] I have been to a tupperware party
[ ] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] I have more bills that I can pay.
[ ] Most of my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[ ] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.

total: 4

add up all the number and repost this as: My marrying age is..

Remembering the Retreat: Day Two

Good news: This day was better than the previous one. It was probably the only day I would like to remember about this whole retreat.

Memories were remembered.
Emotions were felt.
Disappointments were gone.
Friendships were rekindled.
Closures were made.

Honestly, the most part were a little dragging. I was still having trouble really concentrating because of the annoying comments I have been constantly hearing from one side of the room. Fortunately, there was a session where we were to spend some time with ourselves. It was a nice feeling. I was even able to write letters to my friends (again).

What I loved most about this day was when we had our Reflection session. We got to read letters from friends. I was actually surprised because...I didn't actually expect that I would get letters from almost everyone in Fine Arts. I was expecting maybe two or three letters. But the fact that I received so many letters, it was very much overwhelming. Thank you so much for the letters, people!

Then it came to that session where anyone could talk to anyone we wanted to. I got to talk to a couple of my friends in PolSci. Then, of course, I got to talk to two of my friends in Fine Arts. Those two conversations were the most heartwarming and emotional conversations.

The first one was with Euki. No need to tell you how the conversation went on. All you need to know is that it was a talk filled with crying.

The second was with Angelo. Again, I don't need to narrate how our talk went. Whatever we talked about, it was between me and him. But I will tell you this: it was the first time I felt relieved with our talk for the longest time. That's about the closest you're going to get to the details.

The rest of the night went by just like that. When the session for the night was over, our barkada had our own conference. No details necessary. Everything is between us and the room.

All in all, this day was OK.

Remembering the Retreat: Day One

August 27th.

It was a day I was looking forward to. It wasn't because it was just a retreat. It's not about taking a break from school life. It was for one reason only...it was the opportunity I was waiting for to reconnect with God. Ask anyone, they would tell you it was about me re-establishing my spiritual relationship. I am so caught up with everything around me that I had forgotten to make time for the Lord. This is why I wanted to go through with this retreat. Regardless of the fact that we had two other classes with us, I was still looking forward to this retreat. Bottom line: I wanted this retreat to be something I could look back and smile about when the time comes.

That wasn't exactly the case.

Here's the thing. The fact that I was getting this opportunity to spend quiet time with God was something I needed with everything that's happening to me. Then add the fact that I was going to the retreat with my other circle of friends, the Fine Arts people. So it got me really excited.

Unfortunately, nothing was how I imagined everything to be in this retreat. Was it better? Sad to say, it was not.

I never really got to contemplating on how my life and my relationship with God was. Why? Because all I could hear in the background were voices. A few number of voices, drowning out the supposed serenity of the conference room. It was annoying. Disturbing. Frustrating. People can't seem to grasp that this was a retreat. It wasn't some pure bonding moments with your group of friends. It was supposed to be your time with God. I know that's the reason I was there in Tagaytay. There are just these people who seemed to take it for granted...the time with God, I mean.

From morning, until night, I could hear the same voices. Over and over again, all I heard was BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH! Oh and when it comes to singing...how could these people find it relieving and prayerful if they're making a fool out of themselves singing a song as if it was a nursery rhyme?!

At the end of the day, I was frustrated. I wanted to forget what happened that day. All I wanted then and there was to sleep on the nice bed with the thoughts that hopefully, the second day would be better.

Time of the Season (Game Time with the iPod)

Ok...I saw this from my high school friend's blog and I got curious. Hehehe...

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RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!

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1. If someone says "Is this okay?" you say?
~ Oo by Up Dharma Down (Haha!)

2. What would best describe your personality?
~ Somewhere Over the Rainbow by Eva Cassidy (I must be daydreaming about someone...hehehe)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
~ You are the Music in Me by Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens (Come on!!! Meant to be???)

4. How do you feel today?
~ Songbird by Eva Cassidy (I must be in love without me knowing it...)

5. What is your life's purpose?
~ Glamorous by Fergie (Oh yes...that's my purpose...to be glamorous...hahahaha!!!)

6. What is your motto?
~ Let Me Rap by Paris Bennett featuring Kevin Covais (Funny...considering that I don't rap...)

7. What do your friends think of you?
~ Seasons of Love by the Cast of Rent (Cool!)

8. What do you think of your parents?
~ When the Stars Go Blue by Tim McGraw (I just love my parents...hehehe)

9. What do you think about very often?
~ If I was the One by Ruff Ends (Huh?!?)

10. What do you think of your best friend?
~ When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne (Awww...Bez...this is exactly what I'm feeling...)

11. What do you think of the person you like?
~ Always be My Baby by Mariah Carey (Uh...not really the song I had in mind...hehehe)

12. What is your life story?
~ Hey Look at the Sun by Sitti Navarro (That's nice...I like it...)

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
~ Weak by Jojo (Huh? Now how is this related to what I want to be in the future?)

14. What do you think when you see the person you like?
~ Without Love by Zac Efron, Nikki Blonsky, Elijah Kelley and Amanda Bynes (My iPod is playing tricks on me...)

15. What do your parents think of you?
~ A Song for You by Elliot Yamin (Hmm...I'm thinking this should be my song for my parents)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
~ You Take My Breath Away by Eva Cassidy (Oh yes yes yes yes!!! I will definitely dance this song at my wedding...hahahaha!!!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
~ Tonight I Wanna Cry by Keith Urban (Ok...not the song I am hoping for...)

18. What is your favorite hobby/interest?
~ Say OK by Vanessa Hudgens (Who am I singing this song to???)

19. What is your biggest fear?
~ I Fall So Deep by Elements of Life (What the hell is wrong with my iPod? It's sabotaging me...)

20. What is your biggest secret?
~ Catch Me I'm Falling by Toni Gonzaga (Wait...what?!)

21. What song will be the title when you repost this?
~ Time of the Season by Blake Lewis (Hahahaha!!!)