Too much is changing...and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.
It's that day that I was dreading for. I was scared of this day. Chi is leaving for the States and...I can't do anything to stop her from going. As much as I want to make her stay, as much as I want her to be here, where I can see her anytime I want to...I can't.
Everything's changing. Kuya Rom's in Los Angeles, Chi is leaving in a couple of hours...things keep happening that I can't control.
*Sigh*
The tears have yet to stop from falling. I can't seem to cheer myself up from this situation. Would you say that I'm overreacting from this? I guess. But I don't care. How would you feel if you spent your life with someone for so many years and then you found yourself saying goodbye to that one person when you least expect it? Now you tell me if crying about it and feeling depressed is overreacting.
Sure, I'll see her again. In about a year or two. It's hard to adjust to it now. It's hard to adjust to the kind of life from before when Chi is just a jeepney ride away to the situation that's going to be when I have to settle for chats and emails.
I know Chi will probably see this the moment she logs in the internet. You know how I feel about it, Bez. Ever since that day you told me you're leaving after you graduate, you know how I felt. I'm happy for you but...it's just going to be a hard time for me to adjust to the new reality when you're not near anymore...when you and I can no longer hang out in Starbucks whenever we feel like it.
I'm going to miss you so very much...
It's that day that I was dreading for. I was scared of this day. Chi is leaving for the States and...I can't do anything to stop her from going. As much as I want to make her stay, as much as I want her to be here, where I can see her anytime I want to...I can't.
Everything's changing. Kuya Rom's in Los Angeles, Chi is leaving in a couple of hours...things keep happening that I can't control.
*Sigh*
The tears have yet to stop from falling. I can't seem to cheer myself up from this situation. Would you say that I'm overreacting from this? I guess. But I don't care. How would you feel if you spent your life with someone for so many years and then you found yourself saying goodbye to that one person when you least expect it? Now you tell me if crying about it and feeling depressed is overreacting.
Sure, I'll see her again. In about a year or two. It's hard to adjust to it now. It's hard to adjust to the kind of life from before when Chi is just a jeepney ride away to the situation that's going to be when I have to settle for chats and emails.
I know Chi will probably see this the moment she logs in the internet. You know how I feel about it, Bez. Ever since that day you told me you're leaving after you graduate, you know how I felt. I'm happy for you but...it's just going to be a hard time for me to adjust to the new reality when you're not near anymore...when you and I can no longer hang out in Starbucks whenever we feel like it.
I'm going to miss you so very much...
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