Awkward.

It's an awkward feeling. Waking up today, knowing that things have changed...but you have no idea whether it's for better or for worse.

I'm still sad. Every time I think about it, I can feel the tears starting to well up in my eyes. It's really not easy, you know. Trying to think about something else. One way or another, you're going to think about it. There's absolutely no escaping the thought.

I've started to feel this way since two weeks ago...when my brother left for L.A. And things aren't getting any easier. I tried to stop myself from crying but I can't. My college friends said, "It's OK, you still have us." No offense to them, I appreciate the comfort a lot. I know I still have so many friends I can count on. But I think everyone would agree that...it would still be different. Sure, your friends are with you; you can meet up anytime you want. But you will still look for your best friend.

I miss my best friend. I miss my brother. Two very important people in my life are a thousand miles away and I can only settle for mere chats and emails.

I better go. I'm having an early start on studying for my finals in International Law.