Serendipity Made Me Think.

Good morning, world! It is yet another day to blog. Hehehe...

I was in Starbucks Vito Cruz yesterday, working on my thesis. Oh yes, I'm slowly saying goodbye to my sembreak to make progress in my thesis. Anyway, in the course of the painstaking research, I received a text message from a friend that caught my attention. I actually stopped at what I was doing and thought about that message.

Oftentimes, we ask for signs..
For us to know if the person is the right one..
But what if there are no signs?
Is the 'absence of signs' a sign?

As you all know, I have been living the single life ever since. I've experienced a lot of heartaches through the years. When I got to third year college, it was then that I really realized that there's absolutely no need for me to search for "the one." It was then that I decided...no more thinking too much about "relationships" with my guy friends. I just thought that if the guy is "the one," I'll receive some kind of sign from God. What that sign may be, that is between me and God.

And then I receive this message. Is it actually trying to tell me something? What if there is no need for signs? Will I just know? Hmm...maybe yes, maybe no...leaning more on yes, of course.

So...is the 'absence of signs" a sign?

Can somebody tell me?

Estoy Aburrido!

There is absolutely nothing to do today. I know I made plans to work on my thesis but...it's just too damn cold and this is just making me too lazy. Aw...I'm absolutely going to get it. This is not good. I can imagine it now...my adviser would stare at me and say, "What have you been doing for the past three weeks?"

I shouldn't really be this lazy...but the rain won't stop and I'm getting this feeling that I need to get out of my house, bring my school work with me and do them in my usual study place: Starbucks. That's what I usually do. *Sigh* If only the weather was OK.

I'm getting hungry...gotta go!

Ciao!

Random Blogthings Quizzes.

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are Cheesecake

Rich, sweet, and simply perfect. You're not boring - you're just the best!

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Are a Fun Girl!

You are all about having fun - and you don't need to drink to have a good time Sure, you've thrown back more than a few every so often But getting totally stupid and wasted is not your style You're the life of the party, by keeping everyone laughing and smiling

Are You a Party Girl?

Wednesday Morning Blog.

It's been raining for 24 hours straight. I don't know why...but the rain has made me feel a little blue. I can't really explain how it's making me feel a wee bit down in the dumps -- it just does. I don't have any plans for the day to go out...I don't have any plans today, period. Somehow, I feel like the rain is trying to tell me something. I guess I just have to wait a while before I can decode this "message."

Regardless of the blues, I continue blogging. Who knows? Maybe I'll figure out why I've been feeling sad.

After minutes of thinking what to type, I realized I don't have any idea how to go about today's entry. *Sigh* Maybe it's because I woke up an hour ago and my brain is not yet exactly in the mood to think. Haha!

Anyway, don't worry...I'll be back...sooner or later. I'm sure there's something to blog about today.

Just wait.

The Countdown Begins.

A hundred and thirty days left...before I can finally say, "It's over." My college years will be done. And sixteen days after that, I'll be marching with my classmates and friends as we graduate. It seems like only last week when we were starting the school year. All of a sudden, I find myself getting ready to enroll myself for the second semester. My last semester.

*Sigh*

I just can't believe it. I can't believe that in a few months, I'm going to say goodbye to the school I've gone to for four years. Hmmm...I don't know if I should be happy or sad. I guess I'm feeling both. People might think that I'm thinking about it so soon...but who couldn't? It's already in front of me...would I choose to ignore it? Of course not. There's no escaping it. Before I know it, that day has finally come.

And so the countdown begins.

Let's see what interesting things are going to happen to me.

Yet Another Glorietta Incident.

Just after eating lunch, I received yet another startling news about Glorietta. Our neighbor just told Papi that there was a fire in Glorietta 4. Immediately, we turned the television on and tuned in to local news channels. Finally, Channel 26 flashed "Restoran sa Glorietta 4, nasunog."

The fire came from Seafood Seafood Market Restaurant, located at the second floor. The smoke from the restaurant even reached the third floor. According to reports, the fire was caused by a faulty electrical wiring and an exhaust problem. Fortunately, the whole incident was immediately contained and no one was injured.

*Sigh* What in heaven's name is happening?

Harry Potter Shocker!

I was simply surfing the net. I was logging in my Multiply and Friendster accounts, checking my mail, downloading music. I was listening to Natalie's "Love You So" when I decided to search for the song's lyrics in Yahoo. It was then that something caught my attention.

'Potter' author stirs things up. Without hesitation, I clicked on it and read the article.

*Gasp!* Albus Dumbledore is GAY! J.K. Rowling outed on of the beloved characters of the Harry Potter series in front of many people during her book reading and book signing at Carnegie Hall.

I still can't believe it. I'm still in shock. Hahaha!

Nonetheless, Albus Dumbledore is Albus Dumbledore. I still love him, along with the other characters of the Harry Potter series.

I thought I'd blog today...so there!

Ciao!

Glorietta Blast.

I was supposed to meet my friend in Glorietta this afternoon. We wanted to talk about something and we usually eat out in Luk Yuen located at Glorietta 2. We agreed to meet at 2 o'clock. By 1:30 in the afternoon, as I was about to leave school to go to the mall, I received a rather disturbing news from my mom. She said that there was a bombing in Glorietta 2. When I read that message, I was in total awe. I didn't know whether my mom was telling me what happened or if she was asking me if I was aware. Either way, the message caused me to be totally blank.

I immediately texted my friend to see whether or not she's OK. Fortunately, she was still at home. Thank God! I don't know what I'd do if she was injured or something. As soon as I got home, I turned the television on to see what happened. When I saw the images of the bombing, I was at a loss for words.

Just take a look (images taken from Inquirer.net)

My Life is 93% Happy

[ ]You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]You are in love
[x]You have your own room.
[x]You own a cell phone
[x]You have an ipod/ mp3 player
[x]Your parents are still married.
[x]You have more than 1 best friend. - si BEZ at syempre si mr. shock absorber...hahaha!
[x]There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

T 0 T A L: 6

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You NEVER cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.

T 0 T A L: 5

[x] You have over 50 friends on friendster - in both accounts...
[x] You have over 500 friends on friendster - in my first account...
[ ] You have over 1000 friends on friendster
[x] You have pictures on friendster
[x] Your parents let you have a friendster
[x] You get allowance
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going to school. - it's not always...but i do...
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.

T 0 T A L: 10

[ ] You own a car
[ ] You usually don't fight with your mom
[x] You are happy with your appearance
[ ] You have never gotten a failing grade in your life
[x] You have friends

T 0 T A L: 2

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about many people.
[x] You know more than one language
[x] You have a screen name
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You dont have any enemies - as far as i know...
[x] You are a generally nice person.

T O T A L: 8

TOTAL OVERALL: 31

Now count your numbers and multiply by 3

Then title this "MY LIFE IS _% HAPPY

A Few Words.

It's been 13 days since my brother left...9 days since my best friend left. Two people I cherish are thousands of miles away from me. I still can't get over it. Most people think I've gotten over the depression. Well, newsflash -- I'm not. Sure, I'm not as sad as I am when they left...but the melancholy is still definitely there.

*Sigh*

I think I'll log out for a while. I'm not feeling so good.

Morning Praise.

Every morning, I make it a point that I always say my prayers for the new day that has been given to me by my Father. Regardless of whether I feel down or happy or miserable, I always pray. For a good 10 minutes after I wake up, I pray to God and tell Him what is in my heart.

Today, it felt like a prayer wasn't enough. After praying, I felt like I needed to listen to a song. This song is probably one of those songs I will sing forever...this song, as hard as it is for me to explain, always made me feel assured that I am loved.

It is simply the perfect song.

First Semester is Over!

I'm celebrating! Oh yes! I am celebrating...because I can finally take a breather!

I don't want to stay long...all I care about is...I can sleep long hours again!!!

Like this...



Yeah!!!

Awkward.

It's an awkward feeling. Waking up today, knowing that things have changed...but you have no idea whether it's for better or for worse.

I'm still sad. Every time I think about it, I can feel the tears starting to well up in my eyes. It's really not easy, you know. Trying to think about something else. One way or another, you're going to think about it. There's absolutely no escaping the thought.

I've started to feel this way since two weeks ago...when my brother left for L.A. And things aren't getting any easier. I tried to stop myself from crying but I can't. My college friends said, "It's OK, you still have us." No offense to them, I appreciate the comfort a lot. I know I still have so many friends I can count on. But I think everyone would agree that...it would still be different. Sure, your friends are with you; you can meet up anytime you want. But you will still look for your best friend.

I miss my best friend. I miss my brother. Two very important people in my life are a thousand miles away and I can only settle for mere chats and emails.

I better go. I'm having an early start on studying for my finals in International Law.

That Fateful Day.

Too much is changing...and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.

It's that day that I was dreading for. I was scared of this day. Chi is leaving for the States and...I can't do anything to stop her from going. As much as I want to make her stay, as much as I want her to be here, where I can see her anytime I want to...I can't.

Everything's changing. Kuya Rom's in Los Angeles, Chi is leaving in a couple of hours...things keep happening that I can't control.

*Sigh*

The tears have yet to stop from falling. I can't seem to cheer myself up from this situation. Would you say that I'm overreacting from this? I guess. But I don't care. How would you feel if you spent your life with someone for so many years and then you found yourself saying goodbye to that one person when you least expect it? Now you tell me if crying about it and feeling depressed is overreacting.

Sure, I'll see her again. In about a year or two. It's hard to adjust to it now. It's hard to adjust to the kind of life from before when Chi is just a jeepney ride away to the situation that's going to be when I have to settle for chats and emails.

I know Chi will probably see this the moment she logs in the internet. You know how I feel about it, Bez. Ever since that day you told me you're leaving after you graduate, you know how I felt. I'm happy for you but...it's just going to be a hard time for me to adjust to the new reality when you're not near anymore...when you and I can no longer hang out in Starbucks whenever we feel like it.

I'm going to miss you so very much...

Bittersweet.

The hardest thing about friendship is parting. When someone you love moves away, it seemed as if that friendship was just starting until that one fateful day. I never saw it coming, it hit so very fast. The departure was in sight and it was then I realized that we've just spent our last days together.

I miss her now everyday. I can't believe our time is done. We helped each other through many times, both good and bad. As I think of them and reminisce, I see how much we grew from little kids to young adults, we were all each other had. She wasn't just any friend who dropped by and left. Now we're going our separate ways, all I can do is remember the fun we've had through the years.

I Fell Asleep at 8:30!

I don't know if I was too tired or if the weather was too cold. Bottom line...I was able to sleep. Sorry to Alla and Euki...we were in the middle of our chat when I fell asleep. Hey! I haven't had enough sleep for the past week, I needed this!

So what am I going to do now? Well, I'm done with my synthesis paper in Gender, Development and Peace. I'm currently doing my reviewer for Public International Law. Oh yeah! The first semester is about to end and I'm looking forward to it.

Anyway, I better start making breakfast.

Ciao!