Remembering the Retreat: Day Two

Good news: This day was better than the previous one. It was probably the only day I would like to remember about this whole retreat.

Memories were remembered.
Emotions were felt.
Disappointments were gone.
Friendships were rekindled.
Closures were made.

Honestly, the most part were a little dragging. I was still having trouble really concentrating because of the annoying comments I have been constantly hearing from one side of the room. Fortunately, there was a session where we were to spend some time with ourselves. It was a nice feeling. I was even able to write letters to my friends (again).

What I loved most about this day was when we had our Reflection session. We got to read letters from friends. I was actually surprised because...I didn't actually expect that I would get letters from almost everyone in Fine Arts. I was expecting maybe two or three letters. But the fact that I received so many letters, it was very much overwhelming. Thank you so much for the letters, people!

Then it came to that session where anyone could talk to anyone we wanted to. I got to talk to a couple of my friends in PolSci. Then, of course, I got to talk to two of my friends in Fine Arts. Those two conversations were the most heartwarming and emotional conversations.

The first one was with Euki. No need to tell you how the conversation went on. All you need to know is that it was a talk filled with crying.

The second was with Angelo. Again, I don't need to narrate how our talk went. Whatever we talked about, it was between me and him. But I will tell you this: it was the first time I felt relieved with our talk for the longest time. That's about the closest you're going to get to the details.

The rest of the night went by just like that. When the session for the night was over, our barkada had our own conference. No details necessary. Everything is between us and the room.

All in all, this day was OK.

Remembering the Retreat: Day One

August 27th.

It was a day I was looking forward to. It wasn't because it was just a retreat. It's not about taking a break from school life. It was for one reason only...it was the opportunity I was waiting for to reconnect with God. Ask anyone, they would tell you it was about me re-establishing my spiritual relationship. I am so caught up with everything around me that I had forgotten to make time for the Lord. This is why I wanted to go through with this retreat. Regardless of the fact that we had two other classes with us, I was still looking forward to this retreat. Bottom line: I wanted this retreat to be something I could look back and smile about when the time comes.

That wasn't exactly the case.

Here's the thing. The fact that I was getting this opportunity to spend quiet time with God was something I needed with everything that's happening to me. Then add the fact that I was going to the retreat with my other circle of friends, the Fine Arts people. So it got me really excited.

Unfortunately, nothing was how I imagined everything to be in this retreat. Was it better? Sad to say, it was not.

I never really got to contemplating on how my life and my relationship with God was. Why? Because all I could hear in the background were voices. A few number of voices, drowning out the supposed serenity of the conference room. It was annoying. Disturbing. Frustrating. People can't seem to grasp that this was a retreat. It wasn't some pure bonding moments with your group of friends. It was supposed to be your time with God. I know that's the reason I was there in Tagaytay. There are just these people who seemed to take it for granted...the time with God, I mean.

From morning, until night, I could hear the same voices. Over and over again, all I heard was BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH! Oh and when it comes to singing...how could these people find it relieving and prayerful if they're making a fool out of themselves singing a song as if it was a nursery rhyme?!

At the end of the day, I was frustrated. I wanted to forget what happened that day. All I wanted then and there was to sleep on the nice bed with the thoughts that hopefully, the second day would be better.

Time of the Season (Game Time with the iPod)

Ok...I saw this from my high school friend's blog and I got curious. Hehehe...

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RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!

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1. If someone says "Is this okay?" you say?
~ Oo by Up Dharma Down (Haha!)

2. What would best describe your personality?
~ Somewhere Over the Rainbow by Eva Cassidy (I must be daydreaming about someone...hehehe)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
~ You are the Music in Me by Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens (Come on!!! Meant to be???)

4. How do you feel today?
~ Songbird by Eva Cassidy (I must be in love without me knowing it...)

5. What is your life's purpose?
~ Glamorous by Fergie (Oh yes...that's my purpose...to be glamorous...hahahaha!!!)

6. What is your motto?
~ Let Me Rap by Paris Bennett featuring Kevin Covais (Funny...considering that I don't rap...)

7. What do your friends think of you?
~ Seasons of Love by the Cast of Rent (Cool!)

8. What do you think of your parents?
~ When the Stars Go Blue by Tim McGraw (I just love my parents...hehehe)

9. What do you think about very often?
~ If I was the One by Ruff Ends (Huh?!?)

10. What do you think of your best friend?
~ When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne (Awww...Bez...this is exactly what I'm feeling...)

11. What do you think of the person you like?
~ Always be My Baby by Mariah Carey (Uh...not really the song I had in mind...hehehe)

12. What is your life story?
~ Hey Look at the Sun by Sitti Navarro (That's nice...I like it...)

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
~ Weak by Jojo (Huh? Now how is this related to what I want to be in the future?)

14. What do you think when you see the person you like?
~ Without Love by Zac Efron, Nikki Blonsky, Elijah Kelley and Amanda Bynes (My iPod is playing tricks on me...)

15. What do your parents think of you?
~ A Song for You by Elliot Yamin (Hmm...I'm thinking this should be my song for my parents)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
~ You Take My Breath Away by Eva Cassidy (Oh yes yes yes yes!!! I will definitely dance this song at my wedding...hahahaha!!!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
~ Tonight I Wanna Cry by Keith Urban (Ok...not the song I am hoping for...)

18. What is your favorite hobby/interest?
~ Say OK by Vanessa Hudgens (Who am I singing this song to???)

19. What is your biggest fear?
~ I Fall So Deep by Elements of Life (What the hell is wrong with my iPod? It's sabotaging me...)

20. What is your biggest secret?
~ Catch Me I'm Falling by Toni Gonzaga (Wait...what?!)

21. What song will be the title when you repost this?
~ Time of the Season by Blake Lewis (Hahahaha!!!)

A Teaser from High School Musical 2.

I can't help it! High School Musical 2 is just 2 weeks away to be shown in Disney Channel (although in the US, it was already released). I just had to watch a part or two. Thank you, YouTube for the videos! Hahaha!

I realized how early it is to gush over Zac Efron. I don't care. Haha!

Good morning, world!

Cherished Moments.

How do you say thank you to someone who has just given you a chance to experience something so special? Something you thought would never touch your heart, soul, and mind so deeply?

Words come hard to explain how thankful I am that I shared these cherished moments with someone special. "Thank you" seems so small in comparison to the world I've seen. Even though there were just those few stolen hours, my world is forever changed.

I think the saying is so true, "Life is not measured by the breaths that we take, but by the moments that take our breath away." Those cherished moments took my breath away! I will always remember the man who took my breath away so easily.

Newest Quizzes in Blogthings.

You Will Be a Modern Bride!

While you aren't ready to throw away all wedding traditions, you want a wedding with a twist You're more inspired by celebrity weddings on E! than from bridal magazines Whether this means getting married on the beach barefoot or a mariachi band for the reception... Your wedding will be a blend of old and new - white dress cocktail, personalized vows, whatever suites you!!!

What Kind of Bride Will You Be?

You Are 36% Emo

You're definitely not emo, but you do understand emo people a little. You are introspective, but not to the point of driving yourself crazy.

Are You Emo?

Your Life is Better Than 69% of All People

You really have things pretty good - so stop a minute and appreciate how great your life is. You likely have a cheery outlook, supportive friends, and plenty to keep you happily busy. You are usually content - and with good reason. You have a lot to be happy about. So when things don't go well, remember that you have it better than most people!

How Does Your Life Compare?

You Are A Gold Girl

You're dependable and hard working. You never miss a deadline - and you're never late. You have a clear sense of right and wrong. You're very detail oriented. You get frustrated when your friends are sloppy - or when they don't follow through. You're on top of things, and you wish that everyone else was!

What Color Girl Are You?

Your Stress Level is: 46%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard. When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems. But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.

How Stressed Are You?

Another Long Weekend.

It's really starting to bug me. I find myself stuck in my house with nothing to do because classes have been suspended once again. I really hate this feeling of sluggishness...especially since I have papers to write and reports to research and most of all...my thesis to begin. It's not enough that I have unlimited access to the Internet. I still need the library.

Uh-oh! I just realized something...oh my gosh! I haven't had any Starbucks coffee in a while! Awwww...now I'm really bummed out.

So here I am again, blogging my stress away. Whenever I try to think of something good about the suspended classes, I can only come up with one thing...I have slept longer hours. That's it. Nothing more.

*Sigh* I wish I can say I'm fine with these "classes-are-suspended-days" but I'm just not that OK. It's a little weird, I guess, coming from a student. For all you know, students are celebrating the fact that they haven't a had a class in days. I, on the other hand, am getting more and more frustrated. Doesn't anybody share my sentiments on this thing?!

I think I need to eat...again...

The Stormy Days are Starting to Annoy Me.

I used to love hearing the announcement from PAGASA, "Classes are suspended." I don't, anymore. You'd think I would appreciate those days that I would get to actually stay home, watch television, eat anytime I want, and do whatever I needed to do for school.

Think again.

Maybe it's because my classes are just three times a week and the suspensions are eating away those opportunities for me to do something progressive. Imagine yourself going to school once a week just because the other days were declared suspended classes. It's really starting to frustrate me.

I seem to be the only one who feels this way. I talk to my other friends and...they all wish there won't be classes the whole week. I, on the other hand, would like to go to school and do something productive. Am I weird or what?

I just received a text message from a classmate. She hopes that there won't be classes tomorrow. Oh...I don't know about that. I don't think I can bear another 6-day weekend. I am going to go crazy! I need to get out of my home from time to time.

*Sigh*

Rain, rain, go away...

I mean it.

Hairspray...Zac Efron...Love it!!!

I just can't get enough of Zac Efron! I am so in love with him...gosh! I am head over heels with him...I could just daydream about Zac Efron...

*Sigh*

Here's a video of one of my favorite songs in Hairspray.


Without Love

Oh my gosh...don't you just love it???

Watch Hairspray, people!!!

"Yo le pierdo."

Sé que es injusto para mí escriba esta entrada en español otra vez. Yo apenas no lo puedo ayudar. Siempre que quiero escribir algo grave acerca de...usted sabe...yo apenas no lo puedo decir derecho.

Deseo había una manera que acabo de conseguir fuera de mi sistema sin esconder detrás de este idioma. Pero adivino que no es tiempo. Todavía no, por lo menos.

Yo lo pierdo. Yo lo pierdo mucho. Sé que está loco pero eso es exactamente cómo yo me siento. Yo todavía no diré que yo lo adoro o nada. Yo sólo quiero verlo. Ha sido demasiado largo desde que duramos vimos uno al otro. Yo sólo quiero estar con él otra vez.

Deseo que él pueda leer esto. Por otro parte, yo deseo que él nunca supiera acerca de esto. Por otro parte, él no sabe acerca de esto. Debe permanecer así por la mala vez.

Estaré esperando...

The Mind Wanders at 3:24 in the Morning.

It seems that no matter what I do, no matter how much I try...I tend to wake up so early in the morning, nothing can get me back to sleep. That is, until the time I turn on my computer, log in my blog and publish a new entry. Oh what a way to make myself sleepy again.

For the last two days, I was...how would I put it...unusually happy. Recently, people have been saying that this year has been the happiest they've seen me ever since. I, on the other hand, didn't see it like that. I actually had to stop and think why...and I realized it was because of one special person. Still, this surge of emotions is not a result of being in love. I think that at this age, I'd know that I'm in love. I'm just not there yet.

Do I want to be at that point where I can say I am in love with someone right now? Truth is, no. I'm just not ready. I have too many things going for me that I'm afraid if I go into a relationship, everything is going to suffer. *Sigh* I distinctly remember last week when my friend, Jane, asked me why is it taking me too long to admit my feelings. I answered her directly, "Because there is nothing to admit." There just isn't anything there to admit. Even if there is, why should I be the first one to say it? I'm not that kind of girl. As much as I wanted to satisfy Jane's "appetite for the truth," I simply can't.

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Three days ago, I had a talk with my friend's mom. Oh my gosh...I tell you, when we were done talking, I was feeling so happy, every negative feeling I had that day was gone. We didn't really talk very long but...it was one of those conversations that sticks with you until who knows when. She told me how much she misses me and how she would want to see me again soon. She'd like it very much if I visited her house again when I am free. I told her that the next time (hopefully soon) I visit, I would teach them how to make leche flan.

It's not a big secret that Tita said something a few months ago that rattled my nerves. Sometimes, when I think about it, I would still get goosebumps. If only I can make Tita's comment come true. But the fact of the matter is...it has to be done from their side, not mine. Haha! Enough said.

Days, months, years passed...I have loved their family more and more. I have become so attached to their family, I have to say, it will be very hard not to even think about them.

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Yesterday, I was able to talk to him...finally, after such a long time, we had our conversation. I missed talking to him about the "simple things." Whenever we talk, it wasn't really about we really wanted to talk about...it was about things that happened that didn't really affect us directly. So...I'm happy to have had that talk with him yesterday.

We're going to see each other in a couple of days. I can hardly wait for that. It's really not a big deal but...well, all right, in a way, it is a big deal for me. Like I said before, I just missed him...very much...that seeing him by then would probably make me very, very, very happy for a long time. I'll see him before I go on my retreat, which is a good thing. Hehehe...

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There you have it. My blog for the day. At least, my entry for now. Fret not, dear readers, this is not the end of it.

I finally hear the calls of my bed, luring me to go back and lie down. Sleep is waiting for me. My eyes are seconds away from finally closing.

I'd like to say good night but...look at the time.

Good morning, everyone!

Good Night.

As the days gone by
and the darkness at hoods

I lay down to my bed
in cold evening solitudes

Wish you're by my side
to cuddle me and warms

But everytime I made turns
nobody's there in my arms

My heart greets you goodnight
but miles separates, no lights

Oh, You are far of my site
moonbeams holds me tight

You don't know how you've been miss
I will let you taste my goodnight kiss.

But I hope your in my side tonight
to kiss you my sweet good night!

Quotable Quotes.

Can you actually guess who said these memorable lines?

"I am an angel with horns."

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"Bakit hindi na lang kasi si Margie ang ligawan mo?!"

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"Boss Marge!"

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"I'm sick. Nakakahawa ka!"

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"Eto, texting you habang may work. Baka kasi magtampo ka pag hindi ako nag-reply eh."

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"Paki-explain naman sa akin yung decision."

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"Hug sabay kiss na lang."

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"Pwede bang ikaw na lang?"

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"...Miss Editor-in-Chief Prettygalmaggie."

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"Yellow Cab! Yellow Cab!"

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"Prettygalmaggie! OK ka lang dyan?"

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"Magmukha akong sexy nyan."

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"Virus ata blog mo eh."

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"5'10"... Buti nagkasya ako."

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"Thanks Margie! Having you in my life this year is one of the greatest blessings I received."

It's Another Saturday Morning!

Good morning, world! How do you do? It's a brand new day and what better way to start the day than to wake up to the sound of your phone ringing at 4:00 in the morning and hearing the voice of your friend, reminding you that you have get up and get ready for your 7:30 class.

Wait--that's not the case.

I forgot to tell my friend that I didn't have class today. Oy vey! But I still consider it a sweet gesture from my dear friend. It's quite funny, you see, I was talking to him on the phone all night and yet...I forgot to tell him that I don't need to go to school. Tsk tsk tsk...

Oh yeah...I forgot to say that friend is a guy. Don't get your hopes up...I have five words for you: HE-IS-JUST-A-FRIEND! Entiende?

I know you're reading this, Sir...not a word out of you!

I gotta go...for now. I still have to go somewhere.

Ciao!

P.S.
Happy birthday to my high school friend, Vica Hernandez!!!

Spending Friday in an Unusual Way.

It wasn't like any other Fridays I've spent.

A typical Friday for me was spending the morning at home, checking my email, watching television and eating lunch. The afternoon was usually spent in Starbucks, studying a chapter or two of Bernas' Public International Law for Saturday's class with Sir Bugaoan. I would be there until 6:00 in the evening, sometimes with my friends, Marvi and Tracy, but usually I'd be alone. By 6:00PM, I would immediately go home, cook dinner, set the table, eat with my parents.

That's my typical Friday.

However, today was a peculiar day. More than peculiar, I should say.

I haven't had class since Wednesday due to the storm. I've been bored at home, doing nothing, so I thought I'd go to school and study up for next week's classes. I got to school around 11:30 in the morning and I immediately proceeded to The Scholastican Office. Fortunately, Peachy was there so we got to talking about the design for the jacket and the graphics for the first issue. A few minutes after 12:00 noon, I got hungry -- again -- so I decided to eat...again. I went to the canteen and bought myself Green Mango Shake and Bacon and Egg Sandwich.

Damn! It was then that I remembered that I just went through my monthly appointment with my ortho. The second I bit on that sandwich, I instantly felt the pain I should have gotten used to, considering I've had these braces since I was in second year high school. Oh the pain!

Anyway, I went back to the office and talked to Peachy about the graphics we needed in the first issue. After 15 minutes, I had to meet my friend at the Pergola to give her something. As soon as that was done, I went back to the office. On my way there, I met up with...who else, but Sir Bugaoan. We had a little chitchat about...my blog, as usual. My gosh, this was the time that I realized he just wouldn't let it go. Hahaha! He's very curious about what I write in my blog...which is fine with me. I can't say that it's invasion of privacy. It's on the internet. I'm practically putting myself out there. Fortunately for me, a certain someone is still oblivious to the existence of this blog.

After having the conversation with my professor (quotable quote: "OK ka pala magblush, no? Pati arms mo namumula.), I again went back to the office and waited for my classmate, Easter. We had to talk about some things...academics, extra-curricular. Those kinds of stuff.

Around 1:30, I decided to go to Starbucks. I was meeting my best friend, Chi. I had to go there as soon as possible. It was hard to get a decent seat in the afternoon.

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Chi and I met up around 2:40. We hung out, talked about what's happening with our lives, all that Best Friends stuff we usually do when we meet up. She was actually keeping me company. I was studying while she was being her usual happy twenty-year-old. Yes, Chi...you're 20! Hahaha!

Chi had to leave me alone for a while. So once again, I was on my own in Starbucks. Oh my! Once again, someone went up to me and introduced himself. What was it? First, Gab...now, this guy?!? What the hell was up? The first thing he said was, "Hi! May kasama ka ba?" I looked at him with "the look" I usually give to total strangers, especially to guy strangers. "Pwedeng makiupo?" He said next. Immediately, I looked down and told him I wasn't interested. He stood there a while. I looked at him yet again and said, "Not interested." The guy wouldn't give up. I had to go to the next level. I said, "Taken." The moment he realized he had no chance, he walked away with that somewhat defeated posture.

Luckily, my best friend was back. No one dared to come near our table again. Yahoo! We were once again back in our own little world. A couple of minutes later, Chi's sister, Claudia came and joined us. So there we were...Tres Mujeres. Hahaha!

Around 6:30 in the evening, I was joined by my two professors, Sir Bugaoan and Sir Peter. Hehehe...this was the first time my friends saw my professors. Introductions were simply necessary. After introductions, Chi and Claudia were off to eat dinner and I was left with my two professors.

So there I was with Sir Bugaoan and Sir Peter. Hmmm...you'd think that it was a very dull moment. Not at all! No way! Not even close. Quite frankly, every minute was a blast. The presence of my two professors there was simply a funny thought. I never thought I'd spend time with them. Again, they were asking me about my blog. Tsk tsk tsk.

Time passed by and Sir Peter said that he had to go home. I was itching to go home, myself. Sir Bugaoan still had other plans. So, I went home by jeep as my two professors walked back to school.

That was my peculiar Friday.

Hmmm...this is quite an entry. I just realized. Haha!

Oh well...at least I could say that I've recorded it in my history before I forgot about this day. Although...what was to forget?

Bottom line...I had fun today.

*Yawn* I'm getting sleepy. My bed is already "screaming" for me to go to sleep.

Good night, dear readers!

Until my next entry...

New Haircut.

I was bored. I had nothing to do after going to my ortho appointment. I decided I would get a haircut today.

No more chitchat...here I am with the new haircut.

Notice the difference?

Untitled.

Rain...

Softly falling down
each drop a symphony of sound
as it hits the tin roof
tap...tap...tap.

It can sound just like a sad song with a slow beat
the kind that makes you daydream
and feel sad and sigh
as you think of what might of been or could be in your life.

Or maybe it is a happy song that brings back sweet memories
tender thoughts and special smiles
thinking of someone who makes your heart beat faster
and your laughter ring with happiness and joy.

Or maybe it is a love song
with sweet and soft lyrics
tender and romantic and sensual
that makes you think of dancing in the rain.

Only you can decide which song
is the one you are hearing
which music soothes your soul
and which song you want to sing along with.

Sometimes, you have to choose a song
and the choosing isn't easy.

Another Blog Entry.

It's strange. It's funny, actually, how certain people in your life turned out to be.

Who would have thought...
...a friend for six years suddenly became a stranger?
...a stranger you've just gotten acquainted with became an instant friend?
...a professor you didn't want to have changed into the professor you've always looked forward to?
...a mentor you thought highly of developed into a friend you never thought you'd have?
...a person you fell in love with unexpectedly turned into someone you don't want to be with?
...a person you never expected to be your friend came to be the person you feel most comfortable with?

Amazing, huh? How you suddenly see people in a different light. Yes, I know there are those gave you tears and heartaches...but for the most parts of your life, you meet people who change you in a good way.

This is a realization that just struck me a couple of hours ago. Crazy realizations. They hit you when you least expect them. But you're lucky to realize such wonderful things. It only means you're living your life the way you're supposed to live it.

I had to enter this in my blog. It's not to impress people or something. Hopefully, people who are reading this would also realize that there's a lot of good things in this world. No matter how bad things would turn out to be, there's always something good that happens to you.

At 21 years of age, people say I still have a lot to go through. I don't doubt that. Not at all. However, at 21, I have to say that I've gone through so much that a lot of people can't say they have. I consider myself lucky.

I count my blessings. That's for sure.

Before I end my blog, let me just greet my dear friend, Kits Falcis, who is celebrating his birthday today. Hehehe...happy birthday, Kits! I didn't forget...God bless you on your special day!

With that, I say...

Goodbye!

You Came.

You came like spring
And lit my soul on fire
When the birds began to sing
You came and inspired

When the flowers began to bloom
With the smell of spring in the air
You took away the gloom
And taught me how to care

I'll never be the same
You breathed new life into me
I'm so glad you came
A true friend you'll always be

Preposterous!

I'm not the confrontational type of person. Never was. Probably never will be. But if I have to up to that person to make him or her understand that I shouldn't get blamed for something I didn't do, I'm going to do it.

It's frustrating to find out that a certain authority is actually furious because of the claim that the school publication is being irresponsible.

Can somebody tell me how going to SAO to ask for weekly updates on college activities is irresponsible?! Can somebody actually say that I am not doing my part as Editor-in-Chief?! I cannot believe that someone has the audacity of accusing me that I am not doing my job when I am actually working my butt off to actually do my job!

I'm sorry if I'm coming off as offensive and maybe even disrespectful to authority. But it's an insult. Plain and simple! I feel like I have been reduced to a low life form.

I have to get back to my other responsibility: my studies!