Classes Begin June 14 (for me)...

It was enrollment day for graduating students. Oh yes, the beginning of the end. Hahaha! I never thought I'd actually be looking forward to my enrollment...particularly this enrollment. I hate the fact that I'm down to 16 units and yet my total tuition fee is almost P32,000. Who wouldn't be so angry about that? So again, it's Plan C for me.

The good news about it all is that...my schedule is pretty light. I only have classes every Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. Yahoo! Here's the rundown of my schedule:

Tuesday / Thursday
09:00am - 10:30am -- Political Parties and Interest Groups -- Rolando Yu
10:30am - 12:00nn -- Gender, Peace and Development -- Rita Cucio
01:30pm - 03:00pm -- Political Economy and Development Theories -- Peter Cruz

Saturday
07:30am - 10:30am -- International Organization and Law -- Eric Bugaoan

I still have one subject that has no schedule and no professor assigned yet. Political Communication. I just hope the schedule will be on a Tuesday and Thursday. Oh how I wish that it would be.

Classes begin June 13. Wednesday. But since I don't have classes on Wednesdays, my school year officially starts on the 14th. Hahaha!

Well, I have to go...for now.

Ciao!

Rainy Evening.

Time to blog again. Surprised? I hope not. This is my 130th entry in 7 months. I'm so proud. Hehehe...

Finally! There was rain. I have been waiting for this to come since I felt the piercing heat of the summer. It's nice to feel the coolness of it for once. Well, what can I say? I don't really know what I have to write here. I'm actually feeling very sleepy but I can't go to sleep quite yet. It's roughly 2 weeks left before I go back to school. Yes, it will be the first semester of my senior year. Can you actually believe it? I'm so excited! It may not be very evident in my facial expressions, but deep down, I am telling you...I'm very excited.

Enrollment is here and I am eager to know who my professors are going to be and what my sched is going to look like. Hmm...I wonder...

"Lo digo en serio."

It's a little bit hard to try and understand myself these past year when it comes to the "matters of the heart." After 21 years, I find myself...waiting. I am waiting to receive those ten signs from above in one guy. Too many signs, I know. But this is something I learned from a conference I attended to. I don't intend to reveal those ten signs...well, not just yet.

A lot of people would say...I'm crazy to just "wait" for love to happen to me. For me, I believe it's what God intends us to do. I am not the one who believes I have to wait for the career to come to me, for the job to be found, for my life to go forward. That, I believe, I have to do everything I can to fulfill them. However, when it comes to love, I wait. I would wait.

Call me traditional, call me old-fashioned, but I do believe that whoever God has intended for me, he's out there somewhere and he's coming for me. Whether I have yet to meet him or I already know him, I leave it all to God.

People ask me if there's someone I like. I keep telling them that I only see these people as my friends. I can honestly say that I like someone but...to like someone is so much different from feeling something towards that someone. The people in my life right now...they are all my friends. Yes, even him. I dare not say his name because he may be reading my blog and I don't really want to make it such a big deal. Haha!

I've been through many heartaches, through many heartbreaks. I don't really think that it's the right time to trust my heart to fall for someone again. Yes, life is short, no one knows how my life's going to turn out. But if there's one thing I'm sure of...it's this: God has plans for me in every aspect of my life. Whatever His plans are, I accept.

With that, I leave this blog with this...

Tengo interés en usted pero hasta que el tiempo venga, yo no hablaré de cómo yo me siento.

Note: If you know what the Spanish sentence is...keep it to yourself.

Letter to Pam Mercader.

Read This Letter.

Realization Hits Me Hard.

After two years of being in the Editorial Board of The Scholastican, I have realized something. That realization is this: I care about TS too much to settle for just "OK." Thinking about the coming school year, I don't want the school publication to compromise on what we already have. If only that was possible. To me, I can't do that. How can I settle for facilities that are nowhere near "good enough" to work with? That is just unacceptable. Totally unacceptable. The office is too small to do presswork, the computers are so slow to work on the layout, the internet is not always up to use for publication research...how could we possibly work with that? I know I'm demanding a lot but it's something I believe TS has to have to do what we need to do.

I said it before. TS is half of my school life. When it comes to college, I only care about two things: my performance in my academics and the school publication. If I fail on these two, I would absolutely break down.

Now that I am the Editor-in-Chief of TS, I want to make sure that the students remember me as the student who gave it her all and made sure she delivers what the publication is meant to serve. To be honest, I try not to think too much of what the whole campus is expecting from the publication. All I want to concentrate on in TS is that we have a responsibility to the campus. TS stands on its own. TS doesn't play second fiddle to the administration or to any other organizations.

It surprises me how much passion I have for this publication. I mean, I know I love writing and I love being part of the campus paper. But this passion is just so surreal. I can't even begin to describe how attached I am to TS.

I wish everything that we plan for the publication will be accomplished. I really hope we do. I want to leave a legacy to my Alma Mater. Not to be popular to the students, but to serve as an inspiration that great things can be done if we just put our hearts and minds into it, if we just commit to it. School hasn't even begun and here I am talking about leaving a legacy. Too early, I know...but...that's just how I want Scholasticans to remember TS under my editorship.

I love journalism. I love writing. I love The Scholastican.

Enough said.

Seriously.

As years pass by, some things in life have become more complicated than I would have expected them to be. It's funny when people tell you to just go with the flow. Yeah sure...go with it, wherever it may lead you. But we don't know for sure that if we simply go with it, things might lead to something much more...difficult. They might lead to something much more complex. That's how things are right now with me.

When I was 4 years old, I said I wanted to become a doctor and save lives. I could have...if I didn't find out that I am freaking scared of blood. I wouldn't last one minute in an operating room. Haha! In fifth grade, I wanted to be a teacher. But when I got to high school, I realized I didn't want to be the person standing in front of students who asks the most difficult questions and end up not being able to give them the answer they were looking for.

Then I said I wanted to sing. Well, let's just say that didn't last long because I found myself slowly losing interest in making music as my career. Sure, I love music and I love to sing but the truth of the matter is...I don't see myself making a career out of my singing. After all that, it hit me. Second year high school. I knew what I wanted.

A lot of people think that I don't have a problem living with my life at this point. To them, I seem like the type who's sure of what is to come my way. That's a lot coming from them. Most of my friends see me as the one who's almost there, reaching my goal. Well, I wouldn't put it that way. Sure, they got it right when they say I'm in the right track. But I wouldn't exactly say that I'm almost there. I still have a long, long, long, LONG way to go before I reach my goal. I know that after I graduate, I won't be getting the job of my dreams immediately. So...I don't think it's quite right to say I'm there.

Yes, I am a PolSci student. When people hear that I take up political science, they always ask me if I plan to take law afterwards. I would instantly shake my head in disagreement because becoming a lawyer is not even close to what I want for my life to become. My parents, especially my mom, wish that one of her children would be lawyers and I think she was banking on me, for the reason that I was always watching shows with courtroom trials and anything that has something to do with lawyers. I thought I'd be a lawyer, too. But I got to realize something right before I got to college. That realization was...I want to write. I want writing to become my career, my life.

So why am I studying political science? Because I realized that in order for me to write what I want to write, I have to learn how to write substantively. And in order for me to write something that makes sense, I have to learn how to think both analytically and critically. That is why I wanted this course. Not that I am bashing print journalism or communication arts or mass communication. I totally respect these courses. However, I feel that when you believe that you're meant to become a writer, then that would just mean, you are a writer. The technicalities of writing, I have the basic knowledge about it. Judging my capabilities, I realized then that I needed to develop the way I think and the way I see things that happen around me in order for me to write about it. True enough, it worked. My perspective about society definitely turned a full 360°. I owe it to this course, to the subjects I am taking, to my professors.

I was talking to a friend of mine about two weeks ago. When she asked me what I wanted to do after college, I told her that I wanted to write. It was funny because her reaction was, and I quote, "Magra-writer ka din? Talaga? Overqualified ka na dun!" (note: yeah, you know who you are). But I know it's my "calling" to be a writer. So I forget about other people's comments of not pursuing it. This is what I want. In time, I know I'm going to get what I want.

Stay tuned for more entries. Haha!

Ciao!

Morning.

I woke up around 6 in the morning and the first thing I did was turn the television on, pop the ANTM Cycle 7 in the DVD player and start the TV marathon. I know...I am being the lazy person at the moment but...I think it's safe to say that I deserve this rest. The past week has just been so stressful and tiring but...it's all fun. I've done my required hours for my practicum but I still go to the office. Hehehe...I like going to the office. It's nice...it's fun. Oooh! Thanks to Sir Marc for treating me and Pam at Starbucks. Hehehe...it's been months since I last had a Starbucks frappe. We also ate Pancit Malabon and Goldilocks cake for the May celebrants at ASPAC...which reminds me...happy birthday, Ms. Rose!

I'll be back later on. Still watching ANTM.

I Have Blogged Again.

Yes, I haven't been blogging recently. You could just imagine how busy my summer is. OJT at DFA...data gathering for thesis...preparations for TS. Oh the stress! My stress level is already past the limits. But the bottom line is...I'm having fun!

OJT in ASPAC is over but I still report to work. There's just so much to do and there are so many things to learn. I'm really glad that I was assigned in the Office of Asia and Pacific Affairs.

Thesis is easier for me now that I have access to the library. It's also good for me that I have been exposed to what's going on in the conferences I have attended. This is it!

TS...half of my academic life. I swore to myself the day I officially became the Editor-in-Chief that I won't let the school paper down. I have to stand up and fight for the publication. From the beginning, I have had a lot of pressure coming from the administration, the college...almost everyone around me. People think it's that easy to just release an issue. When we release something to raise social awareness, some students find it "very heavy" to read. I know it shouldn't all be politics and social issues...but I think it's better to do these kinds of publications than release something more on music and plays and activities. It's not just about what's going on inside the campus anymore. It's also what's going on outside the college.

We had our first EB meeting last Saturday. I was ecstatic to have the EB with me and when we started discussing initial plans for the paper, it hit me...I feel like...it's going to be great. *Sigh* I'm sure this is a year I would cherish with TS.

Well, I have to go now. Still have to do some stuff.

Ciao!