There comes a point in your life when you just think of something out of the ordinary. A point where you surprise yourself because you realize that deep down inside you, that "something" has actually been there for such a very long time and all you do is try to subside it, try to not think about it. You try to live a pretty normal life. You think of the usual things you think are normal. All of a sudden...you think about it. You think about that "something" you believed you had absolutely no problems with...until you realize that you do. You have a problem with it.
In 19 days, I will be turning 21. For 21 years, I could say that I have yet to meet "the one." I know, I know. There's bound to be someone who's meant to be with me and in time, I'll finally meet him and we'll live "happily ever after." So the fairy tale daydream goes.
Still, I couldn't help but think...who is "the one" for me? When will I meet him? Is it soon or do I have to wait for how many more years before I finally meet him? Is there someone I could actually say "the one"? Many questions go unanswered. For now.
Yes, I know. I'm being melodramatic. But can I help it? I'm like that.
I wish I would know. I wish I'd know who he is. He's probably out there somewhere thinking of the same thing. He's probably thinking who is "the one" for him too. He's somewhere, hoping he'd find his destiny...the same way I'm hoping I would find mine.
There's a reason why I haven't met him yet...or why I haven't realize that any guy I know now is "the one." Hm...God sure has His mysterious ways of telling you what you want and need to know. God is probably looking down on me, saying, "Margie, there are still a lot of things you have to do. There are still things that you need to realize before I let you meet him." Yeah...more or less, He's saying that.
I'm pretty sure it's already "written in the stars" to whom my heart belongs to in the end. However, I cannot deny that I am hoping that the one I'm meant to be with is the one I think is meant for me.
I said it before...I'm at a point in my life where I am starting to like someone again. I am at a point where I can open my heart for a someone I could feel a connection with. To be honest, I am starting to believe that I really like someone.
How do I know?
He's just...someone I can connect with. He can make me smile without even saying a word. We don't talk much. We seldom communicate. But...when we get the chance, he has this ability to make me feel...happy. I light up when I see him, when I talk to him, when I hear him joke around. He makes me laugh when he sings songs off-key. He's simply adorable and...there's nothing bad I can say about him.
Do I like him? Yes, I do. I like him as a very good friend.
Do I like him "like him"? I don't think I have reached that point yet. You see, I believe we're still at a point where still getting to know each other and we still have a lot more to discover about each other.
Am I in love with him? Absolutely not! I don't know him that much to be in love with him. There's still much to learn. But...I am hoping I would. Because I feel that if I do...I'd feel that happiness I am looking for.
*Sigh*
I think this is enough for one entry. I think I've poured out enough heart and soul into this blog.
Until next time, my dearest blog.
In 19 days, I will be turning 21. For 21 years, I could say that I have yet to meet "the one." I know, I know. There's bound to be someone who's meant to be with me and in time, I'll finally meet him and we'll live "happily ever after." So the fairy tale daydream goes.
Still, I couldn't help but think...who is "the one" for me? When will I meet him? Is it soon or do I have to wait for how many more years before I finally meet him? Is there someone I could actually say "the one"? Many questions go unanswered. For now.
Yes, I know. I'm being melodramatic. But can I help it? I'm like that.
I wish I would know. I wish I'd know who he is. He's probably out there somewhere thinking of the same thing. He's probably thinking who is "the one" for him too. He's somewhere, hoping he'd find his destiny...the same way I'm hoping I would find mine.
There's a reason why I haven't met him yet...or why I haven't realize that any guy I know now is "the one." Hm...God sure has His mysterious ways of telling you what you want and need to know. God is probably looking down on me, saying, "Margie, there are still a lot of things you have to do. There are still things that you need to realize before I let you meet him." Yeah...more or less, He's saying that.
I'm pretty sure it's already "written in the stars" to whom my heart belongs to in the end. However, I cannot deny that I am hoping that the one I'm meant to be with is the one I think is meant for me.
I said it before...I'm at a point in my life where I am starting to like someone again. I am at a point where I can open my heart for a someone I could feel a connection with. To be honest, I am starting to believe that I really like someone.
How do I know?
He's just...someone I can connect with. He can make me smile without even saying a word. We don't talk much. We seldom communicate. But...when we get the chance, he has this ability to make me feel...happy. I light up when I see him, when I talk to him, when I hear him joke around. He makes me laugh when he sings songs off-key. He's simply adorable and...there's nothing bad I can say about him.
Do I like him? Yes, I do. I like him as a very good friend.
Do I like him "like him"? I don't think I have reached that point yet. You see, I believe we're still at a point where still getting to know each other and we still have a lot more to discover about each other.
Am I in love with him? Absolutely not! I don't know him that much to be in love with him. There's still much to learn. But...I am hoping I would. Because I feel that if I do...I'd feel that happiness I am looking for.
*Sigh*
I think this is enough for one entry. I think I've poured out enough heart and soul into this blog.
Until next time, my dearest blog.
2 comments:
yikeeeeeeeee... wahahahaha~
the minutes are ticking away. enjoy while you're still twenteen... ^^
yes, i know...i'm turning the big 2-1. anxious-excited, that's what i'm feeling. woohoo!!! i just woke up!
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