Sunday, February 04, 2007

February Blues.

Sometimes, I wish I knew.

I wish there was a way I'd know why I feel the way I'm feeling. For years, I make it a point that I don't get myself down from all the things happening around me. I don't want to feel burdened by some sorrow caused by a feeling of emptiness or frustration or whatever. But somehow, someway, that sorrow finds its way to make its presence felt just when I think there's really nothing to be worried about.

Recently, I couldn't help but feel a little bit sad, a little bit depressed. As much as I try to not think about it, the truth is...it has something to do with the "L" word. You got it. Love. I know. It sucks to feel down about this but I can't help it. I can't stop feeling this sadness that's slowly filling me up inside.

No, I haven't changed my mind. I still don't want a boyfriend anytime soon. But like I said before, I wish there was a way a certain someone will make my day on the 14th. If only there was a way that *he* and I could spend time together...just the two of us...on a date. Wouldn't that be a wonderful thing?

It's funny how my a lot of my friends make me realize how sad it is sometimes to be single. Most of my friends have plans on the 14th. A lot of them already have dates...which leaves me a little out of place. My parents are going out...my brothers are going out too. My gosh...even my family has plans on Hearts Day. So who am I stuck with? Nobody. I'm not stuck with someone...I'm stuck with tons of paper works I need to submit for school. Woe is me.

Oh well, we'll just see what happens in days to come.

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